i shall try to stop being an emotional tart on my blog.
thanks everyone for the good words :)

and what defined most of yesterday:

Sing tune of to "Singapore Town"

I took a little trip sitting Bus and Train,
to find the choir's Mrs Elaine Wan,
Through Coller Quay and Raffles Place,
Reached Esplanade ,PHEW, not too late.

To give her flowers
for her many hours,
that she spent in teaching us.
To make her happy
and tell her sincerely,
that she should be *clap *clap *clap, more nasty

When I reached there
She didn't pick up her phone.
I was like "OH S**T S**T S**T S**T S**T"
Yet when I went to the info counter
My phone suddenly ring.

To give her flowers
for her many hours,that she spent in teaching us.
To make her happy
and tell her sincerely,
that she should be *clap *clap *clap, more nasty

Finally, I met her
and she was very happy.
But when she left
I stood and ponder
"Now I am stuck here"

To give her flowers
for her many hours,that she spent in teaching us.
To make her happy a
nd tell her sincerely,
that she should be *clap *clap *clap, more nasty





And that was the quintessance of lame

How frustrating it is.
To be unable to tell anyone anything.
To have nobody close enough to confide.
To keep everything to yourself.

Its really awful.
You know.
Really.

Yes, I'm still not be able to sacrifice.
It will just rip my wounded aortic pumps to bits.

Rooftop
We're here again, but different, always, somehow.
Motes of dust ebbs away, everytime. (I think)
It clings to our shoes. A parasite? A dandelion?
Alas, the tiles will be visible, one day.

I'm here again, but different, always, somehow.

ATTENTION! You have been caught by the Happy Police!
You are now surrounded! Put your cheeks up and surrender your frown!
We are not afraid to use our endorhphins!

You were spotted today,25th August 2008 with a teary eye,
and countless acts on Emo-ing and not smiling.

Our 'Unhappy Detector' is able to penetrate through your pseudo image,
All attempts are to be given up in the name of Happy Law!

I, hereby sentence you to a lifetime of smiling,
laughing at cheap thrills
and intenstive counselling by our familiar neighbourhood counseller.

I am sure she will be delighted to help you.

Court Dimissed!

*boing*boing

The waves roll silently up the beach,
retreating with a melodious hiss.
Subtle blends of sweet and salt,
the concoction of the dewy breeze.

The sand, virgin and supple,
painted only the pictures of our dancing feet.
Those pale crystals snuggled up between our toes
as we embellished the beach.

"Sir, Madam, its raining"
And yes it was.
Yet, our movements unbroken,
spelling our hearts out on the surface.

Neither party could comprehend,
only the doves that encircled overhead knew.
Did they speak of bleak or bliss?
Gay or Grief?

Written on their faces,
a smile.
Ah.
Eternity, now.

Dim hues of warm light from the cafe,
rests on the cobbledstone street,
The air, a touch of moisture, a gust of wind.
Faint scent of a cuppa pervades the air,
and just a tinge of the aroma of a cigar.

Drizzle, only felt, not be seen.

The wooden radio gently comes to life.
May I?

The notes linger in the air.
And only with the our eyes as audiences,
we danced all night.

not usual of me?

I woke up today.

Sick and tired of life.

certainly not a NEW phrase in many mouths:
I think I'm messing up my life.

Geez.
My studies have taken a dip.
I cannot do Maths like I used to.
Biology is not at the snap of fingers.
Chemistry is too.
Econs is foreign.
English is GOSH!
Chinese, I just lost the impetus.

Its practically impossible to balance a social and working life.
Seriously.

On the other hand,
Choir has been stressful in ways.
But then, getting the many helping hands just makes me feel so much better.

And,
having the moments where I just tear myself away from school (which is practically my life)
is all so wonderful.blissful.
Stepping away from that busy, hectic world in just a few minutes.
Who wouldn't want that?

Gosh! I think I'm going to mess up the selection test for the research attachment.
My preparation plan was "Just Whack"
I don't think its effective.
Hmm...

Well, it was a great day.
Saturday begin with running at Mount Faber with Cross.
I've got to say its pretty fun going back.
However, its again, tiring. =P

Rained so we rushed back to school much earlier.
Time alone for quite a long time.
Its pretty nice wandering around school on your own, taking your own time doing things.

Enjoyable moments filled the rest of the afternoon.
But, Im afraid its all coming back again.
Not the bad, crappy parts but the good ones.
The happy ones. The smiley ones.
Its less complicated if I keep it as the way it was.
Just don't come crashing down again.
I do not want to let go...

The night was spent in a fail-ed Comm outing.
Small group but ah wells, it had its fun bits!
Though I figured, the comm is breathing Choir at nearly every moment.

Sheesh.

okay.
I am really lost.

fishsticks!

on top of that,
I have to worry about the ccas.
today was apparently quite well.
Came to school and figured oral was postponed!
Scored pretty well for a test i didn't prepare xD
Secured a Gold for NAPFA!!

Then came the afternoon,
Bad news?

wow. 3 days choir filled. SERIOUSLY
Friday. Saturday. Sunday

Friday was really fun fun fun!
Ran to school. Gosh, the latic build up was terrible. As in, it couldn't clear as fast as it used too. Grr.
National Day celebration was great! Time spent with choir was like another reminence of FOA preparations STRESS-LESS. We went up there just to have fun with the crowd :)
In that period of rehersal, it was so much relax and just pure joy.
Pretty serious now, considering the role i have to play but still, I had my fun.

Officially, it has to be the most number of times I looked at the camera lens on 8 August 2008.
Pretty surprised with myself too.xD
After the performance, Y5 post FOA thingy was not bad!
I mean, I didn't have in mind the entire party ra ra thing but a time together was essential and just satisfying enough :)
Left halfway for the interviews at MOE.
I have to admit that I'm pretty weary about my ability to qualify! It was such a short interview! Considering the MOE Pre-U one, it was certainly a short one.
The interviewers, as usual, were nice..

Went back to school.
Met a bunch of kukoos holding MOPS while taking pictures.
Where the kukoos turned out to be the dear y5's who still stayed on.
Hahaha. It was really funny though. The whole idea of them being retards. O_O

Quickly pushed on to talking about Choir.
Stayed and moved to KBL to talk about more prevalent things.
And the Cutey Year 1's, Hadi and Edwin stayed back to clean the KBL!
Those two! We owe them BIG time!

Today was Choir meet again.
Essential since more of the Comm came.
Lunched first and then, supermarketed and met.

Pretty alright meeting but what others said was that is was not fruitful.
I thought it was though xD
Anyhow, tommorow is another meet up but faster one.

Well, many things are being decided for tommorow.
I have to then finish my work, swim, and yah, that.

I wished there were like 24 digits on a analouge watch.
Days will be doubled. having, 730 days in a year!

Whoopee!

i recovered. :)
I guess its after the thinking, dreary feeling for 3 days, i just couldn't take it!
Though, i wake up in the mornings feeling lousy, it gradually becomes better
and acceptance kicks in through the day.
Well, i really got to thank the people that were concerned, really wow. thank you.
and especially choir. I guess a major turning point was when i entered the KBL and saw everybody. A sense of belonging and fun!

Also, I really am sorry for jeopardizing the other party. Didn't expect that the other side had other pressing problems too. How selfish, jet!

Well, now, i really need to get back on work. It really feels so much better with mind mostly on work now.
Oh, and as it may be informed from the lovely crowd of the tagboard, most people probably know the news. Well, I work it my way and see how it goes :)

And i really really love the structure of it. The people presently in the Comm are wonderful.

I suddenly feel really thankful for my life presently.
I back to being smiley.
I got my friends.
I got Choir.

Yet, I NEED results.
FOCUS!

today. was proabably my quietest day in ACS
much of the blast came today. it was pretty painful when you think of both parties together.
till PE, where i amazingly fell asleep in the MPH, i felt much better.
apparently exercise works so it should be a morning run to school tommorow.

i do not doubt that the pain is still there.

on the lighter note though, the class was concerned about the silence.
thank you

we'll see how long i can keep suppressing myself.
i'd be proud of it if i could do so.

before i get to school and be flung into a whirlwind of emotions.
i just have to say this.
slept pretty early last night. Simply lost it.

...

Its sooo secret agent falls for subject.

The Scene
"Please get __ back, ___ probably our only hope"
"Yes. I'll go"

It started out as a mission.
Then, it became disastrous.

I've only got myself to blame.
I read it wrongly and,
Its certainly so selfish if I were to drag people down.

I am not regretting anything.
But, if I had known sooner.
and if I had not been that ignorant.

However, when ignorance was in,
it was the best time ever

Its ironic that its time to avoid the person that cheers you up.

So well, i just hope to get back onto my feet.

So finally,

Thank you for the times of
The Purple Dinosaur,
My Spongy Yellow Friend,
The Hundred Acre Woods Family.

:')

Choir. Never had I expect. Really. I dont know how to express my utter jubilation during the course of all the events.
I did feel this joyous feeling whenever I step into Choir but Thursday and especially Friday, was the most enjoyable period of the entire FOA rehersal period and possibly my happiest period yet in ACS(I) Choir.

Starting on Thursday:
Anticipated the ending of school at yet another early time, 11am.
Met the others and lunch-ed with cheeky Secondary One's at their Charity Cafe.
Submitted to spending 50 cents to a bag of what-seemed-to-be Banana Flavoured Popcorn
No, I didn't finish it myself or else my throat would have died.

Pretty good rehersals with Ms Lim. Sounded well and warmed up. Ended with a tee-wee bit of dancing in the KBL.
Mini-outing with the Choir Dancers! Doug, Jeremiah, Hui Fang and myself head down to Holland Village. Bought hats, Confetti Guns, Balloons, Hairsprays, Beachballs. Plodded down to Coffee Club for dinner.
Geared up for the night!

Morning of FOA! Reached CPA 1 and back to that familiar crowd.
Morning spent rehersing, yet again. Though I was allowed to sit and watch the 1st half. Pretty entertaining!
Afternoon was probably the most fun, smile-filled,laughter-filled, relaxed period of FOA. After lunching, headed back to paint the hats! It was sooo fun! Not only painting the hats but the complete randomness in between.
Lets see, attempts to paint one another, eating gummies! Jeremiah's crazy laughter, Working pretty hard on the hat, making the clearing up of confetti a game.

Its pretty pathetic on my side that I required so much help! I needed help eating the gummies, painting the hat, popping the gun. Oh gosh, what I wimp I am!
Proudly donned the hat and dined! Walked back to change. Pretty fast, warmed up, holding room and out. And then, waited to enter and perform. Noticed that AGAIN I was with the wrong crowd but I just couldn't be bothered!
Spectacular performance. As we sang each song, I really couldn't believe that all that practices in the last few months is just passing away as we hit each note and carry on to the next few songs. You know, if you thought back then, you just didn't want to sing so time need not past..

Second half!
Changed. Revised steps. 6 of us got high infront of a glass panal while revising steps. Soon, it was running down the steps and dancing. Then Tequila-ed, Albert's Perfect Solo, All for One. BAM!

Thanked Mrs Lenie Cho. Rushed out to sing Lord Bless. First time was an Epic failure. Third time was the best. Returned to KBL and photo graphed. What fun we had!
The Congo? Line. Darling Superstar. Taupoks. Hairsprays.
Swensons.
Home.
Slept.
Dreamt.
Woke up.

"Oh bother. FOA is over!"

And to add on..Photos!