Time to 'Shutup'
I figured today when I should shush myself:
When I get hungry, I get really angsty. Sadly, a dear IB chorester came into my way, and yup, I was quite erm, unfriendly. :P
After I eat, I get TIRED and will start saying ANYTHING and will ramble and ramble. Poor Ariel had to stand my crap this afternoon as I talked and talked and talked senselessly. GOSH!
When I get angry, yup. There is this HUMONGOUS possibility that I'd swear. How amusing that in this 2 months of utter rubbish life, I swore more times than I ever did over 3 years, unless you count 'fish', 'fishcakes'.
I am ex-haus-ted.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
Sing *oops*
well! having more experience in the choir is not exactly rewarding,
now, you finally understand how horribly you are singing. SIGHS.
today was awfully stressful.
its that feeling where you feel this pressure at your head
and it presses incessantly..
ah wells, it was just as though i had a synapse war in my head.
breathe in breathe out!
the secondary choir and douggie keeps me going :)
just awfully tired out with 5 days of choir.
sleepy..
well! having more experience in the choir is not exactly rewarding,
now, you finally understand how horribly you are singing. SIGHS.
today was awfully stressful.
its that feeling where you feel this pressure at your head
and it presses incessantly..
ah wells, it was just as though i had a synapse war in my head.
breathe in breathe out!
the secondary choir and douggie keeps me going :)
just awfully tired out with 5 days of choir.
sleepy..
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Wanton Mee, SOUP!
hmm, besides the title being my recent SAC 'fad food',
My school life seems to be alluded to that piping bowl of mee.
The noodles are like my typical school life, yummy yet TOO MUCH!
The wantons are like classes, cold, not THAT yummy, but still have to eat.
Char Siews are like the cheap thrills I find in school.
And the SOUP is like CHOIR, it contains my life, making everything murky and translucent.
Oh yes, and the vegetables, which I always throw away, probably represents my omnipresent workload.
Gees! Its been a tiring week.
Singing every single day and finally lost my voice on this Vinegar Day.
Hohoho, what ANGST!
I'd probably be ONE of THOSE millions of people out there thinking that they are the ONLY ONES without a valentine. pHBBBT.
Anyhow, judging by stereotypes:
I am 18
YET:
I spend time either at home or in school,
usually have dinner with my parents on saturday nights,
gets driven to school :P,
vertically challanged,
,
just not the way an '18-year-old' should be.
Ought to start work now..
hmm,
haven't done much work today, since I spent the morning reading National Geographic and the afternoon at Choir,
Though, I learnt that Darwin's first observations weren't the finches of the Galapagos Islands but Armadillos, Rheas and others which the shipmen of Beagle brought back for makan.
Interesting...
Yup, so along the lines of reading the article,
my mind buzzed with failed attempts to dispporve the Origin of Species.
I suppose ultimately, it is a choice of : To believe or Not to believe.
Either knowledge in the Bible and the Theory of Evolution do certainly have arguments and evidences, yet this all require this so-called 'leap of faith'.
As what Karl Popper said, humans, in order to continue to believe in what they want to believe, quoted example for his book 'Conjectures and Refutations (Marx Theory of History)', humans often end up misintepreting this theory as they add their OWN NEW intepretation just to suit the phenomenon which seemed to dispprove it, what Popper called, 'Conventional Twist'.
So what weak argument I can come up with is, the Bible is not a theory, but an account. However, we see, it is the THEORY of Evolution. Hence, yes, present evidence, misintepret, conventional twist. Badly dispproved. xD
Well, picking today to say the Sinner's Prayer was more of auspicious than anything,
This walk to accept Christ in my life could only be experienced by myself,
in how I felt the Holy Spirit enter my life in the past few months,
and how God has his ways of sending his blessings upon me.
So 14 Feburary 2009, Valentines Day,
I did experience love today :)
God's everlasting love.
hmm, besides the title being my recent SAC 'fad food',
My school life seems to be alluded to that piping bowl of mee.
The noodles are like my typical school life, yummy yet TOO MUCH!
The wantons are like classes, cold, not THAT yummy, but still have to eat.
Char Siews are like the cheap thrills I find in school.
And the SOUP is like CHOIR, it contains my life, making everything murky and translucent.
Oh yes, and the vegetables, which I always throw away, probably represents my omnipresent workload.
Gees! Its been a tiring week.
Singing every single day and finally lost my voice on this Vinegar Day.
Hohoho, what ANGST!
I'd probably be ONE of THOSE millions of people out there thinking that they are the ONLY ONES without a valentine. pHBBBT.
Anyhow, judging by stereotypes:
I am 18
YET:
I spend time either at home or in school,
usually have dinner with my parents on saturday nights,
gets driven to school :P,
vertically challanged,
,
just not the way an '18-year-old' should be.
Ought to start work now..
hmm,
haven't done much work today, since I spent the morning reading National Geographic and the afternoon at Choir,
Though, I learnt that Darwin's first observations weren't the finches of the Galapagos Islands but Armadillos, Rheas and others which the shipmen of Beagle brought back for makan.
Interesting...
Yup, so along the lines of reading the article,
my mind buzzed with failed attempts to dispporve the Origin of Species.
I suppose ultimately, it is a choice of : To believe or Not to believe.
Either knowledge in the Bible and the Theory of Evolution do certainly have arguments and evidences, yet this all require this so-called 'leap of faith'.
As what Karl Popper said, humans, in order to continue to believe in what they want to believe, quoted example for his book 'Conjectures and Refutations (Marx Theory of History)', humans often end up misintepreting this theory as they add their OWN NEW intepretation just to suit the phenomenon which seemed to dispprove it, what Popper called, 'Conventional Twist'.
So what weak argument I can come up with is, the Bible is not a theory, but an account. However, we see, it is the THEORY of Evolution. Hence, yes, present evidence, misintepret, conventional twist. Badly dispproved. xD
Well, picking today to say the Sinner's Prayer was more of auspicious than anything,
This walk to accept Christ in my life could only be experienced by myself,
in how I felt the Holy Spirit enter my life in the past few months,
and how God has his ways of sending his blessings upon me.
So 14 Feburary 2009, Valentines Day,
I did experience love today :)
God's everlasting love.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Bad Day
It started with and taking herculean effort to get out of the bed:
It started with and taking herculean effort to get out of the bed:
- my run to school involved a furiously hurting left leg
- got my feet sandy JUST after I bathed
- lost 2 dollars while buying breakfast
- chased out of the SAC when I JUST began breakfast
- ran 5 levels to figure the classroom door was already LOCKED
- manage to drive my RIGHT knee into the LEFT side of the door
- ended choir meeting at 5, with disastrous SYF costumes
ACS(Independent) Choir needs FASHION POLICEE!
MOREOVER,
ONE WEEKEND with
Saturday:Sold to Choir
Sunday: Sold to Church in the morning
and the afternoon to complete:
EE
TOK
MATHS HOMEWORK
CHEM PRAC
BIO PRAC
i love ib?
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Oopsie Doodles
yikes!
I wasted my holidays catching up with LOTSA sleep :(
How funny that I probably sleep the most in class,
yet I need more of the snooze bug than the others.
new year is alrighttttttttt.
its typical, usual stuff. Pretty weird when I see everyone looking foward to it.
probably a distraction from the economic crisis. hmm.
Well, everything is as boring as it can get...
Cheap thrills MUST fill my life!
Pretty annoying that I don't read the newspaper these days with awful amount of homework.
Gosh!
I better exercise.
yikes!
I wasted my holidays catching up with LOTSA sleep :(
How funny that I probably sleep the most in class,
yet I need more of the snooze bug than the others.
new year is alrighttttttttt.
its typical, usual stuff. Pretty weird when I see everyone looking foward to it.
probably a distraction from the economic crisis. hmm.
Well, everything is as boring as it can get...
Cheap thrills MUST fill my life!
Pretty annoying that I don't read the newspaper these days with awful amount of homework.
Gosh!
I better exercise.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Plague of Misery
It came silently on Thursday and engulfed my dearest brain.
Frankly, I too have no idea what the spectrum of hormones are doing in my body.
Biology has certainly gotten some knowledge into my thick cranium skull.
Darn the seratonins! And far too much adrenocorticotropic hormone(thank you wiki!).
Its funny that my facial muscles are not adapted to keep my lips down.
Even with this dreary feeling, I find the need to smile, if not, my face feels uncomfortable.
Months has past since the days where I could wake up with a smile and sleep with one,
and probably the mood has past when I actually could shamelessly dance along the corridors
or leap up from my seat in the middle of maths class to dance to supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
The concern of the class is really much appreciated.
Yet, all the 'are you okay's and my dear class's scientific hypothesis of my state leads me to be much grateful yet much more reminded of everything I do not want to be reminded of.
Though, is the ignorance of the problem good?
I have to answer that myself and just deal with my circumstances.
Well! On the brighter side of things, its been amusing the extent are go to from running away from my problems.
And again, as always, interaction with Ian, Yun Min, Fang has always kept me happy :)
Even how down I was on Thursday, seeing them just made me laugh, smile and talk.
And obviously, to Mr Douglas Tay! Haha.
He keeps me the most sane in the 'insane' and with him around,
it brings out the high side of me.
I really do love my friends here at ACS(I) but again, these few days I have been flipping through Maris Stella High School pictures.
I actually have not been in much contact at all for a year. zero. absolutely.
How strange it is to actually miss the times where I dread NCC,
where I dread the 50 counts of 8 jumping jacks, the possibility of 100 pushups as punishment,
the echo of senior's boots along the corridor, and yep, the stench of it all.
Come to think of it now, I don't really miss it xD
Again, I just find it, experiential. Haha.
Zooming back to ACS,
Choir has been wonderful these 2 weeks.
Attendance was not bad and attitude was good during practice too.
I sincerely hope this would last and well, everybody to be more happy together.
I suppose that is what I ultimately want, everybody singing happily together, laughing at our mistakes but still happy.
Its a pretty picture
Loads better than a serious choir that sings for the sake of singing well.
Better not let Ms Lim or Mr Phua hear me. Heehee.
Well well, its getting late and I promised myself to go for training tommorow.
It came silently on Thursday and engulfed my dearest brain.
Frankly, I too have no idea what the spectrum of hormones are doing in my body.
Biology has certainly gotten some knowledge into my thick cranium skull.
Darn the seratonins! And far too much adrenocorticotropic hormone(thank you wiki!).
Its funny that my facial muscles are not adapted to keep my lips down.
Even with this dreary feeling, I find the need to smile, if not, my face feels uncomfortable.
Months has past since the days where I could wake up with a smile and sleep with one,
and probably the mood has past when I actually could shamelessly dance along the corridors
or leap up from my seat in the middle of maths class to dance to supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
The concern of the class is really much appreciated.
Yet, all the 'are you okay's and my dear class's scientific hypothesis of my state leads me to be much grateful yet much more reminded of everything I do not want to be reminded of.
Though, is the ignorance of the problem good?
I have to answer that myself and just deal with my circumstances.
Well! On the brighter side of things, its been amusing the extent are go to from running away from my problems.
And again, as always, interaction with Ian, Yun Min, Fang has always kept me happy :)
Even how down I was on Thursday, seeing them just made me laugh, smile and talk.
And obviously, to Mr Douglas Tay! Haha.
He keeps me the most sane in the 'insane' and with him around,
it brings out the high side of me.
I really do love my friends here at ACS(I) but again, these few days I have been flipping through Maris Stella High School pictures.
I actually have not been in much contact at all for a year. zero. absolutely.
How strange it is to actually miss the times where I dread NCC,
where I dread the 50 counts of 8 jumping jacks, the possibility of 100 pushups as punishment,
the echo of senior's boots along the corridor, and yep, the stench of it all.
Come to think of it now, I don't really miss it xD
Again, I just find it, experiential. Haha.
Zooming back to ACS,
Choir has been wonderful these 2 weeks.
Attendance was not bad and attitude was good during practice too.
I sincerely hope this would last and well, everybody to be more happy together.
I suppose that is what I ultimately want, everybody singing happily together, laughing at our mistakes but still happy.
Its a pretty picture
Loads better than a serious choir that sings for the sake of singing well.
Better not let Ms Lim or Mr Phua hear me. Heehee.
Well well, its getting late and I promised myself to go for training tommorow.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
humourous!
Hahaha!
I have a queer reflex!
When I am talking to the people I am avoiding,
I close my eyes and talk.
How funny!
Gosh. This week is hectic.
Next week is just as bad.
I have yet to :
read the two lit text,
do the written commentary,
plan the 2 bio pracs,
finish chem prac,
make sense of my EE results.
Fishcakes! And this is only after one week of school.
FANTASTIC.
Luckily, choir rehersals were retarded with Douggie around...
I need a break.
Hahaha!
I have a queer reflex!
When I am talking to the people I am avoiding,
I close my eyes and talk.
How funny!
Gosh. This week is hectic.
Next week is just as bad.
I have yet to :
read the two lit text,
do the written commentary,
plan the 2 bio pracs,
finish chem prac,
make sense of my EE results.
Fishcakes! And this is only after one week of school.
FANTASTIC.
Luckily, choir rehersals were retarded with Douggie around...
I need a break.
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Well well
The school's results are retarded.
Stress is an understatement.
And stupid EE 1st draft by this week? That's IMPOSSIBLE
My dumb seeds didn't germinate :(
Anyhow, thanks Sze Min and Peter :)
Ahhh. A day without much Choir,
Funny how afraid I was to go for Cross,
but enjoyed it in the end!
The smell of the track,
the sweat,
the burning throat,
the dry lips
...
...
...
and losing to girls in running. D:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
The school's results are retarded.
Stress is an understatement.
And stupid EE 1st draft by this week? That's IMPOSSIBLE
My dumb seeds didn't germinate :(
Anyhow, thanks Sze Min and Peter :)
Ahhh. A day without much Choir,
Funny how afraid I was to go for Cross,
but enjoyed it in the end!
The smell of the track,
the sweat,
the burning throat,
the dry lips
...
...
...
and losing to girls in running. D:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Saturday, January 03, 2009
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
AMAZING
Heehee. Its the last week for TLL,
GOSH! I actually survived 7 weeks of 9 to 6 work!
Seriously, I have got to thank the other TLL participants for keeping me sane.
Not that I can get more insane..Hohoho.
Well, it is a bit SAD that I have to start using more of my brains,
and no longer get the spoon feeding during research.
Running has became quite a bit of my worries,
Talked a bit to another crossie and it seems like my foundation for running is done for!
I really didn't expect when I made the choice to put Choir first, this would happen...
My fitness has plummet to the depths of the earth's crust.
I can't sing very well too! And yet, I put quite a bit of mind into it.
Okay, I must admit I don't do ALOT of work ( Thank you VPs!)
Probably the only thing I get is the stress. Mmhmm.
Heehee. Its the last week for TLL,
GOSH! I actually survived 7 weeks of 9 to 6 work!
Seriously, I have got to thank the other TLL participants for keeping me sane.
Not that I can get more insane..Hohoho.
Well, it is a bit SAD that I have to start using more of my brains,
and no longer get the spoon feeding during research.
Running has became quite a bit of my worries,
Talked a bit to another crossie and it seems like my foundation for running is done for!
I really didn't expect when I made the choice to put Choir first, this would happen...
My fitness has plummet to the depths of the earth's crust.
I can't sing very well too! And yet, I put quite a bit of mind into it.
Okay, I must admit I don't do ALOT of work ( Thank you VPs!)
Probably the only thing I get is the stress. Mmhmm.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Dead Meat, Dead Beat
WELL! The good side of things are that I FINALLY finished my TLL projects!
Poster, Presentation, DONE!
Yay!
Yet now, its a roller coaster ride in studies.
I have yet to touch a single book from school,
I have yet to touch the chem holiday package,
I have yet to touch TOK
I have yet to read Paddy
I have yet to read Ms Julie (Yet to buy..)
I have yet to re-read the lit texts
I have SO much things to do for Choir.
I have TO RUN. If not, I am a disgrace to myself.
Y6.
UH OH!
:O
WELL! The good side of things are that I FINALLY finished my TLL projects!
Poster, Presentation, DONE!
Yay!
Yet now, its a roller coaster ride in studies.
I have yet to touch a single book from school,
I have yet to touch the chem holiday package,
I have yet to touch TOK
I have yet to read Paddy
I have yet to read Ms Julie (Yet to buy..)
I have yet to re-read the lit texts
I have SO much things to do for Choir.
I have TO RUN. If not, I am a disgrace to myself.
Y6.
UH OH!
:O
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Defeated
OKAY! FINE!
I LOSE!
Hahaha.
I'm trying to have a life but apparently, its IMPOSSIBLE.
Yesterday's concert was SHOCKING.
Well, ACS Choir has to work hard.
We can do it! But it takes EVERY SINGLE PERSON'S dedication.
Yes, life-less.
Either than coming home late due to attachement and trying to rush EE or TOK, or even attachment work O_O
my attempts to go out FAILS. xD
Well well well,
that's a jet life.
OKAY! FINE!
I LOSE!
Hahaha.
I'm trying to have a life but apparently, its IMPOSSIBLE.
Yesterday's concert was SHOCKING.
Well, ACS Choir has to work hard.
We can do it! But it takes EVERY SINGLE PERSON'S dedication.
Yes, life-less.
Either than coming home late due to attachement and trying to rush EE or TOK, or even attachment work O_O
my attempts to go out FAILS. xD
Well well well,
that's a jet life.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Nostalgia
Well, I was finding my presentation slides for TLL
(couldn't find it! Means I must go there early tommorow!)
and I accidentally opened something I didn't open for A VERY LONG TIME.
Looking at those files just makes my heart sink,
In a nice way, I look back at those smiling times,
but at the same time, it just screams that its never coming back.
I find it awkward that I am able to laugh at my old plight,
Yet, it is quite queer.
Its quite sad, just very sad,
what I've been through,
and now,
hardly either party open our auricle muscles.
Past
The leaves this summer,
never those leaves that summer.
From the chlorphyll to the lamina,
It is different to me.
The leaves that used to talk,
dance, play, walk, smile.
Gone.
Deomposed, lost to the cold ground.
The leaves regrow, yet,
its not it.
The way it flutters in the wind,
the way it reflects light.
Everything is new,
Cold,
Fake.
One day,
I hope, the old leaves will be taken up by that very tree.
That day, the summer leaves will be the same.
That day, the summer leaves will be the same.
Well, I was finding my presentation slides for TLL
(couldn't find it! Means I must go there early tommorow!)
and I accidentally opened something I didn't open for A VERY LONG TIME.
Looking at those files just makes my heart sink,
In a nice way, I look back at those smiling times,
but at the same time, it just screams that its never coming back.
I find it awkward that I am able to laugh at my old plight,
Yet, it is quite queer.
Its quite sad, just very sad,
what I've been through,
and now,
hardly either party open our auricle muscles.
Past
The leaves this summer,
never those leaves that summer.
From the chlorphyll to the lamina,
It is different to me.
The leaves that used to talk,
dance, play, walk, smile.
Gone.
Deomposed, lost to the cold ground.
The leaves regrow, yet,
its not it.
The way it flutters in the wind,
the way it reflects light.
Everything is new,
Cold,
Fake.
One day,
I hope, the old leaves will be taken up by that very tree.
That day, the summer leaves will be the same.
That day, the summer leaves will be the same.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Monday, December 08, 2008
EXPERIENTIAL
Ran a half-marathon without running for a month. Not exactly the wisest move. It just felt like the first time I ran 10km. Well, bad timing. I didn't expect much. All I expected was to keep running.
Hmm. Dug in a bin. That's something I never thought I would ever do. Yes, I was finding something. Point is, that thing wasn't even in the bin. Heehee. Won't tell you which hand it was! Anyway, I dumped half a bottle of hand sanitizer on it. It SHOULD be germ free.
YUP!
xD
Ran a half-marathon without running for a month. Not exactly the wisest move. It just felt like the first time I ran 10km. Well, bad timing. I didn't expect much. All I expected was to keep running.
Hmm. Dug in a bin. That's something I never thought I would ever do. Yes, I was finding something. Point is, that thing wasn't even in the bin. Heehee. Won't tell you which hand it was! Anyway, I dumped half a bottle of hand sanitizer on it. It SHOULD be germ free.
YUP!
xD
Friday, December 05, 2008
Hyperactivity
Put me in a building for 9 hours.
In a single room for 3 hours straight nearly everyday.
On one chair.
I don't blame myself for HYPERACTIVITY.
My life has became mundane.
Stuff I look foward to would be LUNCH and HOME.
Others would be free moments where I plonk myself on the couch and read
"The New Yorker" 's Fiction Section.
Luckily I have an AMAZING supervisor.
Ho! Yesterday was rush rush rush!
The day at TLL. 9-6
Singing Rehersals. 6.30-9.15
CANDY EMPIRE :O 9.50-10.00 9
(yes it is so important that it deserves a slot!xD)
Terminal 1 10.10 - 11.20
Taxi 11.30- 11.50
Home 12.00
Busy Fizzy Dizzy!
Put me in a building for 9 hours.
In a single room for 3 hours straight nearly everyday.
On one chair.
I don't blame myself for HYPERACTIVITY.
My life has became mundane.
Stuff I look foward to would be LUNCH and HOME.
Others would be free moments where I plonk myself on the couch and read
"The New Yorker" 's Fiction Section.
Luckily I have an AMAZING supervisor.
Ho! Yesterday was rush rush rush!
The day at TLL. 9-6
Singing Rehersals. 6.30-9.15
CANDY EMPIRE :O 9.50-10.00 9
(yes it is so important that it deserves a slot!xD)
Terminal 1 10.10 - 11.20
Taxi 11.30- 11.50
Home 12.00
Busy Fizzy Dizzy!
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