student or elderly?
streaks of greys lined the hair,
and deep, dark rings encircled the sockets.
permanent etch of worry plastered on the matured face,
old...

more caffine, more caffine!

a hacking cough degenerates the weak trachea lining.
wheezing at the slightest exertion of energy.
frail limbs lifts the limp body.

"I must finish before going to the long awaited slumber"

results weren't as bad as i thought?
although, papers were done BADLY
in a way that it puts me in the average
hahaha. i should get pressed down.
thinking too highly of myself at times.

english was just GOSH!
3rd lowest mark in level just isn't sad but humourous.
its an obvious sign of a science student.

ah gees.

i guess the only thing that i feel lousy about is positions.
but i should be grateful in where i stand, and i am.

cheer up!
the sun ain't down yet!

why why why?
its been happy for one day
and its downhill on tuesday

my studies,
teachers have been mopping over exam scripts
going through them.
all it has done was to strike fear and even sorrow
in my educational heart.
maths port. GOSH!
i guess i am not good in maths at all.
ah well.
having to redo isn't at all pleasant.

choir,
its stressful.
people are leaving
there is so many things to settle
and more over, do it WELL
so many things to DO!
to rememeber!
no wonder my temper is getting more and more thin.

jolly what fun!
hahahahhahahaha

boogie-fied!
okay, maybe KBL cleanup wasn't much of a revamp =P
BUT, it is much neater now, MUCH.

funny how i can say that cleaning the room up required blood, sweat and tears.

friday's later half was much better than the earlier.
i guess ceilings are an alternative of clouds.
the amazing short period,
where you wish that time would stop
and last a lifetime.
hohoho.

but then, whats life without complications?

the sunshine was dark at around 12-1 though.
grew brighter, evidently :)
gosh, im starting to become a weatherman

shit
problem is back.
shit shit shit

and i thought it was solved
oh bother!

bah!
my head hurts. I keep sleeping.
gosh, the after effects of absitence from caffine is tormenting.
definitely haven't be productive the last few days.

monday was watching house and flipping through OLD choir pictures.
gosh, how cute our seniors WERE. Haha.

tuesday was much more enjoyable.
morning, was choir spent.
interesting how i spent most of the time pretending to play the songs in the songbank of the keyboard.

the afternoon.
metaphorically,
the sun was up, sunshine was bright and sunny
bask in the brillance of it all.
yeah. loved it.

today was a movie-ing day.
yup, moving. sighs.
fifty first dates. an old one, but pretty.
a walk to remember. touching, very, and sweet, nice.
pretty feministic taste huh?
oestrogen levels are soaring in my plasma. AHHH!
well spent day too, 12-3.

bwahahahaha.
oh exams.
hoho.
english: never good at it, probably never will
chinese: gosh! it was hard. really, this one is sighs..
econs: okay lah..but same thing said in mids, never did well too.
maths: my paper's answer is conc camp material.
chemistry: uh uh, as hard or even harder than mids. which is AHHHHH!
bio: hoho, not that easy subject. okay paper but all the points in? thats the hard part.

all in all,
uh uh.
not a good exam.

i am sad

woke up the morning, tired.
had a phase of emo-cities in school.
booger.
sunshine was bright though.
so sunshine made me happ-ier!
bright bright day till...

i discovered the awesome yes awesome amount of marks i minused.
Firstly, you cant count you with your fingers and thats the first time in a long time,
I know that i minused more than 10 before i got the paper back.
use your toes, also cannot.
use them twice.
thats the amount.
adding on to random mistakes....
my maths has gone down the drain.
has gone.
my good subject.
only good subject.
gone
gone
poooof

meet dumboy jet,
roadsweep with an o level cert.
proud enough to say that i know brooms wear out because of friction.
my muscles are tired because of lactic acid.
my sweat contains chemical NaCl
i can "differentiate" the leaves from the grass.
socialise with the land owners using chinese and english. billingual!
know that i enjoy low tax rates and high transfer payments, benefiting from fiscal policies.
write poems on leaves.

Dew, nice to see you again.
the day springs to a bustle,
yet, all i hear
are the leaves rustle's.


brightside of things huh?
:)

I am a messed up kid.
I am so sick of exams that I cannnot be bothered.
You know? Its scary.
Instead feeling worried, wanting to study, I actually am feeling calm.
Stressed. a little. but not worried.

I cannot even recognise Ammonia being sp3.
I am so useless!
Its good in a sense though.
People will stop thinking that I am smart.
Which is the truth! I am not!

Now, I am just plain. normal. dumb boy.
A simple life lies ahead.
sighs.

exams! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
False hope? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Conc Camp! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

oh am I so tired today.
So very sorry if it freaked anybody out but yes,
when Im tired, I am generally high.
and the bad thing is anything comes out from my mouth.
there is hardly any filter.
bother!

pretty moment today was when buble went "L is for the way you look at me.."
I had to glance up to see freshly bloomed purple coloured flowers from a tree!
Yup, it sounds pretty wussy but thennnn,
the flowers were pretty period.
moreover, the walk home was breezy :)

oh yes, i just bought digestives!
you like them too don't you? ;)

its so darn doodely dang STRESSFUL!
Goodness.
I am dying under that S word.

Just realised the implications of not doing well.
The expectations, Con camp.
EXPECTATIONS!
Thats the most worrying one.
Arghhhhhh.
I am dying dying dying.
Stress Stress Stress.
I even swore for the first time in months.

gosh!

before i was sick:
hershey's
maple syrup

sick:
milo powder

im dead.
sneeze sneeze. sleep sleep.
all the s's yet the one i need is not happening
STUDY!

what a horrid week!
Aside from the short, long destressing moments,
gosh! the lack of sleep!
BAH!

And moreover, I am sick. Argh! Flu Flu Flu.
Just bought a box of disgusting tasting Strepsils from an overfriendly shopkeeper.

Yesterday was enjoyable!

Hypothesis: There is a negative correlation between exams and your well-being.

gosh! I need sleep.
Badly.
I am running on Caffine as fuel.
It is confirmed that I need lots of sleep to survive.

day begun quite boring.
the usuals.
school ended pretty well though :)
happy happy happy!

work!

today! :)

in the tiniest nutshell:

swimming was TIRING
Vanilla again :)
and a beautiful sunset

Ahhhh!

:) Before studying begins

I finished the Clodhoppers!! My goodness! In 24hours.
Abstinence is just not my oomph.
It was gooooood though!

First day of the term was tiring!
Late night due to IOP.
My breakfast got me high though!
Yummy yummy yummy! :D

The only other pretty moment of the day:

Jazz tunes reverberrated within the ears.
Cool, calm surroundings.
The air scented with vallina!
A baker at work!
or if better, a vanilla :) pod tree around the corner :)))

ARGH!
E-rritaing EXAMS!
I having the BLUES.
I cannot do concentrate
I can't seem to do Maths as I used to.

I am dying dying dying.
Studies.

I am prepared to become a road sweeper.
:'(

Oh yes! though one thing I am amused at recently was the ability to finish a tub of icecream.
One stinking TUB!

Better treasured it now,
I don't think I can earn enough to buy that next time considering my future job aspects.

You all are too nice! Making me feel so guilty... :(
I seriously don't think I am so previliged to get all this attention.
bowzers!

Understanding the difficulty to plan things, I REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS!
The EXCO+Mervyn!
I thought the CPA2 thing was so very good already! And although a lunch could follow after,
who knew I had to spoil everything because I was too embarassed. BLEH!
Painted face, wearing a corny hat just is too much to be shameless. at City Hall.

And the EPIC surprise at Goodwood. GOSH!
Coming to my home would just be too far and complicated but the entire thought of it.
Gees!
You guys are lovely!

And everybody's well wishes:
NCC! MSHS! ACS(I)! NYPSCO!
sweet sweet SWEET people!

i fear my exams.
i really do.

my running has regressed.
alot.
today's long run was tiring,
which should not be the case.

although choir is to take a break
stuff is still on my mind.

thank the talk on sunday.
it put my mind off certain things,
some.

though,
i am keeping a smile!
smiley smiley smiley!
la la la la la.

Oh, and a certain sign of stress
when you start talking to ovens,
konkers is near...