Bad Day

It started with and taking herculean effort to get out of the bed:

1. my run to school involved a furiously hurting left leg
   
2. got my feet sandy JUST after I bathed
   
3. lost 2 dollars while buying breakfast
   
4. chased out of the SAC when I JUST began breakfast
   
5. ran 5 levels to figure the classroom door was already LOCKED
   
6. manage to drive my RIGHT knee into the LEFT side of the door
   
7. ended choir meeting at 5, with disastrous SYF costumes

ACS(Independent) Choir needs FASHION POLICEE!

MOREOVER,
ONE WEEKEND with
Saturday:Sold to Choir
Sunday: Sold to Church in the morning

and the afternoon to complete:
EE
TOK
MATHS HOMEWORK
CHEM PRAC
BIO PRAC

i love ib?

Oopsie Doodles

yikes!
I wasted my holidays catching up with LOTSA sleep :(
How funny that I probably sleep the most in class,
yet I need more of the snooze bug than the others.

new year is alrighttttttttt.
its typical, usual stuff. Pretty weird when I see everyone looking foward to it.
probably a distraction from the economic crisis. hmm.

Well, everything is as boring as it can get...
Cheap thrills MUST fill my life!
Pretty annoying that I don't read the newspaper these days with awful amount of homework.

Gosh!
I better exercise.

Plague of Misery

It came silently on Thursday and engulfed my dearest brain.
Frankly, I too have no idea what the spectrum of hormones are doing in my body.
Biology has certainly gotten some knowledge into my thick cranium skull.
Darn the seratonins! And far too much adrenocorticotropic hormone(thank you wiki!).

Its funny that my facial muscles are not adapted to keep my lips down.
Even with this dreary feeling, I find the need to smile, if not, my face feels uncomfortable.
Months has past since the days where I could wake up with a smile and sleep with one,
and probably the mood has past when I actually could shamelessly dance along the corridors
or leap up from my seat in the middle of maths class to dance to supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

The concern of the class is really much appreciated.
Yet, all the 'are you okay's and my dear class's scientific hypothesis of my state leads me to be much grateful yet much more reminded of everything I do not want to be reminded of.
Though, is the ignorance of the problem good?
I have to answer that myself and just deal with my circumstances.

Well! On the brighter side of things, its been amusing the extent are go to from running away from my problems.
And again, as always, interaction with Ian, Yun Min, Fang has always kept me happy :)
Even how down I was on Thursday, seeing them just made me laugh, smile and talk.

And obviously, to Mr Douglas Tay! Haha.
He keeps me the most sane in the 'insane' and with him around,
it brings out the high side of me.

I really do love my friends here at ACS(I) but again, these few days I have been flipping through Maris Stella High School pictures.
I actually have not been in much contact at all for a year. zero. absolutely.
How strange it is to actually miss the times where I dread NCC,
where I dread the 50 counts of 8 jumping jacks, the possibility of 100 pushups as punishment,
the echo of senior's boots along the corridor, and yep, the stench of it all.
Come to think of it now, I don't really miss it xD
Again, I just find it, experiential. Haha.

Zooming back to ACS,
Choir has been wonderful these 2 weeks.
Attendance was not bad and attitude was good during practice too.
I sincerely hope this would last and well, everybody to be more happy together.
I suppose that is what I ultimately want, everybody singing happily together, laughing at our mistakes but still happy.
Its a pretty picture
Loads better than a serious choir that sings for the sake of singing well.
Better not let Ms Lim or Mr Phua hear me. Heehee.

Well well, its getting late and I promised myself to go for training tommorow.

humourous!

Hahaha!
I have a queer reflex!
When I am talking to the people I am avoiding,
I close my eyes and talk.
How funny!

Gosh. This week is hectic.
Next week is just as bad.
I have yet to :
read the two lit text,
do the written commentary,
plan the 2 bio pracs,
finish chem prac,
make sense of my EE results.

Fishcakes! And this is only after one week of school.
FANTASTIC.
Luckily, choir rehersals were retarded with Douggie around...

I need a break.

Well well

The school's results are retarded.
Stress is an understatement.
And stupid EE 1st draft by this week? That's IMPOSSIBLE
My dumb seeds didn't germinate :(

Anyhow, thanks Sze Min and Peter :)
Ahhh. A day without much Choir,
Funny how afraid I was to go for Cross,
but enjoyed it in the end!
The smell of the track,
the sweat,
the burning throat,
the dry lips
...
...
...
and losing to girls in running. D:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

Who's busy?

Why? Why? Why?
I thought the holidays were challenging enough,
and I am slammed with crap these two days.

Bad attendance for Choir
Chem Test on Monday
AEF Forms
TOK
EE

I absolutely hate this shit.

The Final 8 minutes of 2008


Well, I'd say its been an interesting year,
From when I entered the school, I changed a WHOLE LOT.
Learned pretty much too.
I'd say 2009 is a new year.
Happy or not? I guess I choose the latter.

But well, I always look on the brightside of life :)

Deadified

ACS made me a wackier person, IB made me a sadder person.
Nullified, I am per normal.
I think..

Theres so many things to do, so many expectations to meet,
so many things to settle WAHHHHHHH!

Oh MAN

Terrible terrible.
Terrible.

AMAZING

Heehee. Its the last week for TLL,
GOSH! I actually survived 7 weeks of 9 to 6 work!
Seriously, I have got to thank the other TLL participants for keeping me sane.
Not that I can get more insane..Hohoho.
Well, it is a bit SAD that I have to start using more of my brains,
and no longer get the spoon feeding during research.

Running has became quite a bit of my worries,
Talked a bit to another crossie and it seems like my foundation for running is done for!
I really didn't expect when I made the choice to put Choir first, this would happen...
My fitness has plummet to the depths of the earth's crust.
I can't sing very well too! And yet, I put quite a bit of mind into it.
Okay, I must admit I don't do ALOT of work ( Thank you VPs!)
Probably the only thing I get is the stress. Mmhmm.

Dead Meat, Dead Beat

WELL! The good side of things are that I FINALLY finished my TLL projects!
Poster, Presentation, DONE!
Yay!
Yet now, its a roller coaster ride in studies.

I have yet to touch a single book from school,
I have yet to touch the chem holiday package,
I have yet to touch TOK
I have yet to read Paddy
I have yet to read Ms Julie (Yet to buy..)
I have yet to re-read the lit texts

I have SO much things to do for Choir.
I have TO RUN. If not, I am a disgrace to myself.

Y6.
UH OH!
:O

Defeated

OKAY! FINE!
I LOSE!
Hahaha.
I'm trying to have a life but apparently, its IMPOSSIBLE.

Yesterday's concert was SHOCKING.
Well, ACS Choir has to work hard.
We can do it! But it takes EVERY SINGLE PERSON'S dedication.

Yes, life-less.
Either than coming home late due to attachement and trying to rush EE or TOK, or even attachment work O_O
my attempts to go out FAILS. xD

Well well well,
that's a jet life.

Nostalgia

Well, I was finding my presentation slides for TLL
(couldn't find it! Means I must go there early tommorow!)
and I accidentally opened something I didn't open for A VERY LONG TIME.

Looking at those files just makes my heart sink,
In a nice way, I look back at those smiling times,
but at the same time, it just screams that its never coming back.

I find it awkward that I am able to laugh at my old plight,
Yet, it is quite queer.

Its quite sad, just very sad,
what I've been through,
and now,
hardly either party open our auricle muscles.

Past
The leaves this summer,
never those leaves that summer.
From the chlorphyll to the lamina,
It is different to me.

The leaves that used to talk,
dance, play, walk, smile.
Gone.

Deomposed, lost to the cold ground.
The leaves regrow, yet,
its not it.
The way it flutters in the wind,
the way it reflects light.
Everything is new,
Cold,
Fake.

One day,
I hope, the old leaves will be taken up by that very tree.
That day, the summer leaves will be the same.
That day, the summer leaves will be the same.

LIPIDS

shit,

im getting fat

EXPERIENTIAL

Ran a half-marathon without running for a month. Not exactly the wisest move. It just felt like the first time I ran 10km. Well, bad timing. I didn't expect much. All I expected was to keep running.

Hmm. Dug in a bin. That's something I never thought I would ever do. Yes, I was finding something. Point is, that thing wasn't even in the bin. Heehee. Won't tell you which hand it was! Anyway, I dumped half a bottle of hand sanitizer on it. It SHOULD be germ free.

YUP!

xD

Hyperactivity

Put me in a building for 9 hours.
In a single room for 3 hours straight nearly everyday.
On one chair.
I don't blame myself for HYPERACTIVITY.

My life has became mundane.

Stuff I look foward to would be LUNCH and HOME.

Others would be free moments where I plonk myself on the couch and read
"The New Yorker" 's Fiction Section.

Luckily I have an AMAZING supervisor.

Ho! Yesterday was rush rush rush!
The day at TLL. 9-6
Singing Rehersals. 6.30-9.15
CANDY EMPIRE :O 9.50-10.00 9
(yes it is so important that it deserves a slot!xD)
Terminal 1 10.10 - 11.20
Taxi 11.30- 11.50
Home 12.00

Busy Fizzy Dizzy!

Sleep...

Today was just exhausting.
BLEH.

But sad in a way that the only thing left through this entire holidays is ee, tok and attachement.

sighs

What in the World is Happening to the WORLD

Mumbai. Why? Why?
Whats with all the carnage?
We have people killing the planet already with all the global warming,
and everyday, we act as though NOTHING is happening.

I can' stand it.
The chaos just irks me.

In some ways, when people say we are civilised,
I doubt it.
We are still uncivilised,
Everyone is killing everyone,
Just that its slowly, quietly and cleverly.

Disgusting.
Competitive.
Shit.

Presently...

Tired. Tired. Tired.
Hahaha.
It came to a point that instead of sleeping NEXT to my supervisor,
my eyelids drooped right infront of him while he was talking to me.
yikes!
I thought the days where i required that hormone is over!

Sheesh. It would REALLY be boring with Choir off-ed for the year.
Gosh!
Going for TLL is like doing ANOTHER EE.
Don't I hate EE's?
Heh

I have yet to read any academically inclined material
Year 6. Uh oh...

And talking to a possible future European citizen doesn't work.
Its sad to the extreme.
Frankly, I should have expected all THIS for this hols!

Isn't it called the monsoon season?
Hahahhahahaha

Work Work...