Sin

there's too much sin in my life.
oh gosh, the temptations.
AHHH!

fight fight fight fight FIGHT YOUUUU!

Brief Grief

i don't think i will ever forget the picture perfect moment:
i walked into the keyboard lab the day after the SYF,
nothing was touched and everytime was left as it were,
jackets strewn, spots of honey, scores on the risers, hangers.
well, it felt fuzzy.
and literally, my footsteps echoed the empty room,
the room which is now void of the unison laughter and sound of 45 choristers,
no longer could i listen to those 45 voices together, ever again.

its, just, painful.

SYF

and like every drip of water, it trickled away. beautiful sadness.

(thank you peter for the photo)

Disgusting, Revolting, Sad; Politics

surmounting problems.
its disgusting,
I am more affected by this then my studies.

To me, life is simple.
Live the way I want to live.
Is it that hard?
Judgemental, something I am guilty for but entirely judgemental and vindictive?

I need a break.
Some part of me want to revert to the lifestyle of study, run, swim and cycle.

I don't like it at all.
Its like a child's tantrum,
like why can't this be this way? isn't it so simple.

as I said, for now,
I'd rather hang out with my class,
the choirs' exco crowd,
my secondary school mates,
the cf/fireAC people,
specific friends like douggie.
essentially everyone,
except,
.
you people think its so easy?
why not you try? thinking you can do a better job?
I am blowing up.
at least its the end of my term.
bullshit.

"Sit", "Listen"


and that was the longest conversation since a long time.