Smile and the World Smiles Back At You

2009-08-21T16:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm,

theres something wrong with the webpage. anyway.
Okay, IOC was a relaspe of my stammering and stuttering self.
So it was 'f-f-f-f-futlity of m-m-m-man, p-p-p-ersona....g-g-g-good f-f-f-f'
yup, well well. so much about being confident.

anyway, other than studying, I can finally begin reading again!
yes yes yes!

its quite a while since I posted much, with all hectic schedules of FOA and IOC.
FOA was brilliant. unexpectedly.

though, I haven't got that feeling that I left Choir, yet.
I wonder if its good or bad.

tired tired. some other time.

2009-07-27T22:36:00.003+08:00

I should be Studying

well, i assert and confirm that i am unable to work if i don't get at least 6 hours of sleep.

today was a killer.
the halabalu on the stage spoke for itself.
and that drained my day. gosh

anyhow, why did i sleep late then? study? ioc? NO. i was reading national geographic. OH THE VICE. Keep me from going MADDD. haha.

its fairly interesting, and well, its well worth my time.

something i didn't know was that jaguars aren't endangered...yet. Well, i kinda got the notion that all spotted creatures are endangered.

but if that is so, we may be losing a particular female education institution. nothing intended!

and how bluewhales congregate at the Costa Rican Dome, this area where there are many krills.

well, so much for that.

not gonna help me unless i plan to grow up and be Tarzan or something.

'jet jet jet of the jungle dumb as you can be! oh e oh e oh e oh!!!!! watch out for ib!'

ooooh. bad joke

2009-07-24T19:14:00.002+08:00

Oh, that loser

you know how people get so proud when they see their own mark printed as the 'maximum mark' in the level?

well, have you ever wondered about the loser that sees their own mark printed as the 'minimum mark' in the level?

well, meet the loser.

sighss

2009-07-20T21:06:00.001+08:00

I didn't get 7 for Biology

they always say, the title says it all.
my only 7.
judging by the rest of the subjects,
i am probably gonna get a.. nice pretty letter to PTM.

darn.

2009-07-19T19:29:00.002+08:00

Sad Spec Story

oh yes, i forgot to mention the tragedy amongst the tragedies of Shakespeare.
so before anybody thinks that jet got into the great singapore sale and decide to splurge on the authumn collection, i state this disclaimer.
my spectacles gave way.

oh yes haha, you people (if any) probably are going to say, oh jet you study so much that your spectacles broke. hoho.haha.heehee. well, the physics claims the opposite.
my hypothesis is that always, and ALWAYS after feeling exasperated i would take off my spectacles and exert great force to fling it onto my table and go to bed.

so after a rumble thy belly full of lunch on saturday, plus a dose of uncooperative Hedda, the equation was formed. F = ma where F is the force required to break my spectacles and mass is something which i dont know and acceleration would be a coefficient times 9.8m/s squared.

so well, before i am able to regain clear sight, i have to put up with a pair of lopsided, dorky and inaccurate degree-ed pair of spectacles.

whoopee.

2009-07-19T18:43:00.003+08:00

So tell me, what should I speak?

its been somewhat of a fruitful weekend.
well, my plans were elaborate i tell you, and i hoped to do so much of.
..work
well, essentially, it didn't fail, i spent the entire of friday watching King Lear and have to assert that I am not putting myself through that again. Well yes, it is a literature in jewel but jet is far short of reaping thy wisdom from thy play. you get what i mean. and well, one of the greatest takeaways is that the woman acting Goneril, dresses too seductively, and reveals too much of her ______ ( the dirtiest word in cytokinesis minus the 'furrow')

well, apparently and truth to it is that my world lit is trash. well, so saturday was spent re-reading Hedda and Julie and well, that took my entire day. Bible study was the event of the weekend or even the week. It was very much enjoyable and enriching. Not very much I can say, but it would be a pity when everybody starts leaving for everywhere.

well, back on track in studying, i find that i am still very tired. firstly, the last week's night all eneded at 10pm where i just died in bed and did nothing other than Choir.

uhohohohohohohohoh

2009-07-13T22:21:00.002+08:00

Hair

well, exams are finally gone. i am quite surprised people do follow this pathetic space. haha.
anyway, exams were awful for myself. many careless mistakes, so on and so forth, so i doubt i did do well for the exams this time round.

its pretty bad in a way that it is my last year and i kinda pushed harder for olevels then i did for ib.

anyhow, hair, yes HAIR. well, you know how people develop white hair when they are stressed. Apparently, i don't but i suffer MASSIVE hair loss. my books, my table, the room's floor will carry that thin keratin structure that used to be flourishing in my depleting follicles.

i don't suppose i'm balding. haha, but later on in life, we'll see. hahaha.

i have temporary give rest to salman rushdie's jewel for sir arthur conan doyle's familiar holmes. Yes, I do know I have to go sail down the Missisippi River(did i get that right?), trudge down to Barrytown and enjoy a sensual bath by the river, but Sherlock and Watson got the better of me. As for Midnight's Children, it started getting fuzzy and all, so I gave it a break. Its a literature gem, I can see it as it is, but considering my poor analytical skills, I merely identify it as 'chim' but no way can i understand the 'chimology'

so yes, with term 3's final ia showdowns and ioc plus foa. its going to be hectic.

it comes to a point where you ponder what are you doing all this for right? but like what ambrose reminded me, we do all this so that 10 years down the road, he can drive his ferrari to my mansion. ;) with cherry blossoms and an english-speaking japanese wife.

cheerios readers! if any that is. hahahahaha

2009-05-11T12:16:00.001+08:00

Sin

there's too much sin in my life.
oh gosh, the temptations.
AHHH!

fight fight fight fight FIGHT YOUUUU!

2009-05-09T23:08:00.002+08:00

Brief Grief

i don't think i will ever forget the picture perfect moment:
i walked into the keyboard lab the day after the SYF,
nothing was touched and everytime was left as it were,
jackets strewn, spots of honey, scores on the risers, hangers.
well, it felt fuzzy.
and literally, my footsteps echoed the empty room,
the room which is now void of the unison laughter and sound of 45 choristers,
no longer could i listen to those 45 voices together, ever again.

its, just, painful.

2009-05-06T18:28:00.003+08:00

SYF

and like every drip of water, it trickled away. beautiful sadness.

(thank you peter for the photo)

2009-05-02T23:04:00.002+08:00

Disgusting, Revolting, Sad; Politics

surmounting problems.
its disgusting,
I am more affected by this then my studies.

To me, life is simple.
Live the way I want to live.
Is it that hard?
Judgemental, something I am guilty for but entirely judgemental and vindictive?

I need a break.
Some part of me want to revert to the lifestyle of study, run, swim and cycle.

I don't like it at all.
Its like a child's tantrum,
like why can't this be this way? isn't it so simple.

as I said, for now,
I'd rather hang out with my class,
the choirs' exco crowd,
my secondary school mates,
the cf/fireAC people,
specific friends like douggie.
essentially everyone,
except,
.
you people think its so easy?
why not you try? thinking you can do a better job?
I am blowing up.
at least its the end of my term.
bullshit.

2009-05-01T10:04:00.000+08:00

"Sit", "Listen"

and that was the longest conversation since a long time.

2009-04-18T10:12:00.002+08:00

Gold, YES!

whoopee! for secondary choir!
it was an amazing day, I must say.
Taking into consideration Lee Suan Yew Speaker of the Year, I didn't miss ANY lessons.
The first hour of school was spent watching King Lear,
the other hour was an economics video.

a wonderful experience indeed, THOUGH,
it has been a habit probably to expect discipline so well, much scolding occured.
the boys' voices were angelic on stage,
unlike certain SATB choirs which was STILL loaded with Testosterone.

Left with Yun min for lunch at Sushi Tei,
Saw Wei Su! Gosh, what a coincidence and JOKE. HAHA.
Bought a pink CHOCOLATE bar for our dear conductor.
yes and found out time lost buying resulted him in leaving us behind.

so we had an interesting time finding ourselves through One Fullerton to sit a bus back,
well, what was memorable was that finally something good came out from my mouth
when we decided to sing the first page of 'My Love Dwelt in a Northern Land'

Plodded back for Choir, and all was the same,
besides the bustle of getting the results for their SYF.
ah wells,
life goes on.
IB Choir is ...stressed.

2009-04-18T09:50:00.003+08:00

Friends

How lucky I am.
I am so privileged and by the Grace of God to meet them all,

You know, a hasty generalisation but yes, people usually search for 'cool' people to hang out with
the sport bunch,
the attractive,
the funny people,
the flamboyant,
the drama mama's,
the 'come-look-at-me-i-am-a-jerk' gang

and being clouded by this superficial smokescreen, they neglect the,
caring,
nice,
helpful,
(possibly every single name of the 'Care Bears')
well, yes.

For this post, it has been a queer year with all the new found friends, but I must say,
but the Grace of God,
I made friends with Tim, Ted and Nicole
Strengthened my friendship with Ian, Yun Min, Eugene (YES YOU NJ BOY), Douglas

They don't lie in the first category, yet the coolest bunch I met.

and always, there is a however, for life has its ups and downs,
sighs.

2009-04-10T23:57:00.002+08:00

EEjit

spurred by what ginny pasted on lavania's wine bottle casing (her pencil box)
and roddy doyle's VERNACULAR in Paddy Clarke
and of course, the prime of my week, re-doing my EE.

with 6? weeks left, i've just got a fail for EE, great huh.
fantastic. wonderful. amazing. and i spent the whole day,
plowing through the mere introduction.
mannn.

The entire weekend has been solemn with Maunday Thursday, along with Good Friday.
I really hope Easter can come sooner,
and then we can return to worship God with more major-chordy songs.

I figured, we really saw the Class Spirit disintegrate on Thurday's photoshoot.
The atmosphere was just so awkward with the informal shoots,
obviously with underlying hints of politics and whatnot.
our class ain't that wild either..sighs, just when i thought it had hope.

Though, what I really love about this weekend, is that I got to love Jesus even more.
He suffered so badly, underwent insanely physical torture, experience betrayal, yet, he still loves us all.
Isn't it wonderful?
These rekindling of Love is just wonderful.
YAY!

2009-04-03T18:52:00.002+08:00

You aren't the Person I Thought I Knew

A more reflecting post here.
Coming to year6, we see much more people matured,
including myself, a little at least.
Well, people start changing,
and some for the better and some for the worse.
Its actually amazing to know the people you didn't know well initially,
they turn out to be nice people!

Then again, its disappointing to know that people, whom you thought you knew so well, are just not the same.
It sounds like a pretty gloomy post but actually, I am personally glad I found greater love in this 'people-changing' phase. (Its still saddening to know the people you loved aren't what you had loved no more)

Oh yes, And one more thing I actually am grateful for is actually feeling happier in 6.06. In my greater absitenence from Choir this year, or what it seemed to me, my class feels a little warmer. Funnily, I seek warmth and laughther in Kaimin's omnipresent swearing, Yao's great sense of humour, Siu Fung being so animated, Oliver's openness in sharing, Prasad's friendly disposition and patience, Ambrose's help in EVERYTHING and tolerating my woes, Tim's company, William's empathy and advice, Vernon's AND Jerome's bullshit, Priscilla's accidental humour, Dono's warmth, Ann's care..and many more I hope to come in the year,

Dinner awaits my stomach, which is still full from Daily Scoop's ButterScotchPecan and Earl Grey...

2009-03-29T23:19:00.002+08:00

tsk

yes! a tsk to myself,
analysing my present situation, i have been down right lazy.
i haven't ran in ages, how embarassing it was to even follow the crossies to the finals,
sometimes, when i get to tired in choir, i don't give my hundred percent.
i am probably the last few stragglers on EE FIRST draft.
i've neglected QT for quite a few days. :(

man...

i find this all too funny though. HAHA
I am in like deep trouble. HAHA
uh oh.
HAHA

2009-03-16T23:27:00.002+08:00

I hate it

Paron the teenage angst but really, nothing ever goes right these days!
I have more problems with Choir,
my workload is like mission impossible,
i need lotsa sleep,
gosh

though consolations come in the forms of:
finishing half a tub of chunky monkey
finally getting time to go for a long run
completing my first game of minesweeper beginner

ah gees,
life shouldn't be like that...

2009-03-08T17:19:00.002+08:00

Itsy Bitsy Virus Climbing up my Oesophagus

An apt nursery rhyme here! GOSH, the week was horrifying and relaxing in a way.
The amount of time I wasted to get well was just TOO MUCH!
Across the week, I spent more than 36hours sleeping during the weekdays,
and only recovered by the end of the week. BAH!
Fever, I on FIRE!
Yet, I still can't sing as my throat is just clogged up by loads of gooey you-know-what.
eeeeew, but yup, running is even worse since there is the likelyhood I collaspe midway.
Swmming on Friday was enjoyable since I havent done that in a long time,
though the sweet serenity of the pool was broken by adorable little children learning swimming with a not-so adorable looking coach.

Now EE is a pain,
I am stuck at Data Analysis.
Across the weekend, I probably spent 3 hours looking at the graphs and making no sense of it, either than changing my entire EE.

It has been an interesting week in many many ways,
good or bad or normal,
frankly, every week has its own perks..
Ah gees, off to read!

2009-02-28T22:17:00.003+08:00

Time to 'Shutup'

I figured today when I should shush myself:

When I get hungry, I get really angsty. Sadly, a dear IB chorester came into my way, and yup, I was quite erm, unfriendly. :P

After I eat, I get TIRED and will start saying ANYTHING and will ramble and ramble. Poor Ariel had to stand my crap this afternoon as I talked and talked and talked senselessly. GOSH!

When I get angry, yup. There is this HUMONGOUS possibility that I'd swear. How amusing that in this 2 months of utter rubbish life, I swore more times than I ever did over 3 years, unless you count 'fish', 'fishcakes'.

I am ex-haus-ted.

2009-02-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

Sing *oops*

well! having more experience in the choir is not exactly rewarding,
now, you finally understand how horribly you are singing. SIGHS.
today was awfully stressful.
its that feeling where you feel this pressure at your head
and it presses incessantly..
ah wells, it was just as though i had a synapse war in my head.

breathe in breathe out!
the secondary choir and douggie keeps me going :)

just awfully tired out with 5 days of choir.
sleepy..

2009-02-14T20:36:00.003+08:00

Wanton Mee, SOUP!

hmm, besides the title being my recent SAC 'fad food',
My school life seems to be alluded to that piping bowl of mee.
The noodles are like my typical school life, yummy yet TOO MUCH!
The wantons are like classes, cold, not THAT yummy, but still have to eat.
Char Siews are like the cheap thrills I find in school.
And the SOUP is like CHOIR, it contains my life, making everything murky and translucent.
Oh yes, and the vegetables, which I always throw away, probably represents my omnipresent workload.

Gees! Its been a tiring week.
Singing every single day and finally lost my voice on this Vinegar Day.
Hohoho, what ANGST!
I'd probably be ONE of THOSE millions of people out there thinking that they are the ONLY ONES without a valentine. pHBBBT.
Anyhow, judging by stereotypes:
I am 18
YET:
I spend time either at home or in school,
usually have dinner with my parents on saturday nights,
gets driven to school :P,
vertically challanged,
,
just not the way an '18-year-old' should be.

Ought to start work now..
hmm,
haven't done much work today, since I spent the morning reading National Geographic and the afternoon at Choir,
Though, I learnt that Darwin's first observations weren't the finches of the Galapagos Islands but Armadillos, Rheas and others which the shipmen of Beagle brought back for makan.
Interesting...
Yup, so along the lines of reading the article,
my mind buzzed with failed attempts to dispporve the Origin of Species.
I suppose ultimately, it is a choice of : To believe or Not to believe.

Either knowledge in the Bible and the Theory of Evolution do certainly have arguments and evidences, yet this all require this so-called 'leap of faith'.
As what Karl Popper said, humans, in order to continue to believe in what they want to believe, quoted example for his book 'Conjectures and Refutations (Marx Theory of History)', humans often end up misintepreting this theory as they add their OWN NEW intepretation just to suit the phenomenon which seemed to dispprove it, what Popper called, 'Conventional Twist'.

So what weak argument I can come up with is, the Bible is not a theory, but an account. However, we see, it is the THEORY of Evolution. Hence, yes, present evidence, misintepret, conventional twist. Badly dispproved. xD

Well, picking today to say the Sinner's Prayer was more of auspicious than anything,
This walk to accept Christ in my life could only be experienced by myself,
in how I felt the Holy Spirit enter my life in the past few months,
and how God has his ways of sending his blessings upon me.

So 14 Feburary 2009, Valentines Day,
I did experience love today :)
God's everlasting love.

2009-01-30T18:11:00.002+08:00

Bad Day

It started with and taking herculean effort to get out of the bed:

my run to school involved a furiously hurting left leg
got my feet sandy JUST after I bathed
lost 2 dollars while buying breakfast
chased out of the SAC when I JUST began breakfast
ran 5 levels to figure the classroom door was already LOCKED
manage to drive my RIGHT knee into the LEFT side of the door
ended choir meeting at 5, with disastrous SYF costumes

ACS(Independent) Choir needs FASHION POLICEE!

MOREOVER,
ONE WEEKEND with
Saturday:Sold to Choir
Sunday: Sold to Church in the morning

and the afternoon to complete:
EE
TOK
MATHS HOMEWORK
CHEM PRAC
BIO PRAC

i love ib?

2009-01-27T21:14:00.002+08:00

Oopsie Doodles

yikes!
I wasted my holidays catching up with LOTSA sleep :(
How funny that I probably sleep the most in class,
yet I need more of the snooze bug than the others.

new year is alrighttttttttt.
its typical, usual stuff. Pretty weird when I see everyone looking foward to it.
probably a distraction from the economic crisis. hmm.

Well, everything is as boring as it can get...
Cheap thrills MUST fill my life!
Pretty annoying that I don't read the newspaper these days with awful amount of homework.

Gosh!
I better exercise.

2009-01-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

Plague of Misery

It came silently on Thursday and engulfed my dearest brain.
Frankly, I too have no idea what the spectrum of hormones are doing in my body.
Biology has certainly gotten some knowledge into my thick cranium skull.
Darn the seratonins! And far too much adrenocorticotropic hormone(thank you wiki!).

Its funny that my facial muscles are not adapted to keep my lips down.
Even with this dreary feeling, I find the need to smile, if not, my face feels uncomfortable.
Months has past since the days where I could wake up with a smile and sleep with one,
and probably the mood has past when I actually could shamelessly dance along the corridors
or leap up from my seat in the middle of maths class to dance to supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

The concern of the class is really much appreciated.
Yet, all the 'are you okay's and my dear class's scientific hypothesis of my state leads me to be much grateful yet much more reminded of everything I do not want to be reminded of.
Though, is the ignorance of the problem good?
I have to answer that myself and just deal with my circumstances.

Well! On the brighter side of things, its been amusing the extent are go to from running away from my problems.
And again, as always, interaction with Ian, Yun Min, Fang has always kept me happy :)
Even how down I was on Thursday, seeing them just made me laugh, smile and talk.

And obviously, to Mr Douglas Tay! Haha.
He keeps me the most sane in the 'insane' and with him around,
it brings out the high side of me.

I really do love my friends here at ACS(I) but again, these few days I have been flipping through Maris Stella High School pictures.
I actually have not been in much contact at all for a year. zero. absolutely.
How strange it is to actually miss the times where I dread NCC,
where I dread the 50 counts of 8 jumping jacks, the possibility of 100 pushups as punishment,
the echo of senior's boots along the corridor, and yep, the stench of it all.
Come to think of it now, I don't really miss it xD
Again, I just find it, experiential. Haha.

Zooming back to ACS,
Choir has been wonderful these 2 weeks.
Attendance was not bad and attitude was good during practice too.
I sincerely hope this would last and well, everybody to be more happy together.
I suppose that is what I ultimately want, everybody singing happily together, laughing at our mistakes but still happy.
Its a pretty picture
Loads better than a serious choir that sings for the sake of singing well.
Better not let Ms Lim or Mr Phua hear me. Heehee.

Well well, its getting late and I promised myself to go for training tommorow.

2009-01-12T20:38:00.001+08:00

2009-01-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

humourous!

Hahaha!
I have a queer reflex!
When I am talking to the people I am avoiding,
I close my eyes and talk.
How funny!

Gosh. This week is hectic.
Next week is just as bad.
I have yet to :
read the two lit text,
do the written commentary,
plan the 2 bio pracs,
finish chem prac,
make sense of my EE results.

Fishcakes! And this is only after one week of school.
FANTASTIC.
Luckily, choir rehersals were retarded with Douggie around...

I need a break.

2009-01-06T18:09:00.003+08:00

Well well

The school's results are retarded.
Stress is an understatement.
And stupid EE 1st draft by this week? That's IMPOSSIBLE
My dumb seeds didn't germinate :(

Anyhow, thanks Sze Min and Peter :)
Ahhh. A day without much Choir,
Funny how afraid I was to go for Cross,
but enjoyed it in the end!
The smell of the track,
the sweat,
the burning throat,
the dry lips
...
...
...
and losing to girls in running. D:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-01-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

Who's busy?

Why? Why? Why?
I thought the holidays were challenging enough,
and I am slammed with crap these two days.

Bad attendance for Choir
Chem Test on Monday
AEF Forms
TOK
EE

I absolutely hate this shit.

2008-12-31T23:52:00.002+08:00

The Final 8 minutes of 2008

Well, I'd say its been an interesting year,
From when I entered the school, I changed a WHOLE LOT.
Learned pretty much too.
I'd say 2009 is a new year.
Happy or not? I guess I choose the latter.

But well, I always look on the brightside of life :)

2008-12-30T21:14:00.002+08:00

Deadified

ACS made me a wackier person, IB made me a sadder person.
Nullified, I am per normal.
I think..

Theres so many things to do, so many expectations to meet,
so many things to settle WAHHHHHHH!

2008-12-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

Oh MAN

Terrible terrible.
Terrible.

2008-12-21T21:01:00.003+08:00

AMAZING

Heehee. Its the last week for TLL,
GOSH! I actually survived 7 weeks of 9 to 6 work!
Seriously, I have got to thank the other TLL participants for keeping me sane.
Not that I can get more insane..Hohoho.
Well, it is a bit SAD that I have to start using more of my brains,
and no longer get the spoon feeding during research.

Running has became quite a bit of my worries,
Talked a bit to another crossie and it seems like my foundation for running is done for!
I really didn't expect when I made the choice to put Choir first, this would happen...
My fitness has plummet to the depths of the earth's crust.
I can't sing very well too! And yet, I put quite a bit of mind into it.
Okay, I must admit I don't do ALOT of work ( Thank you VPs!)
Probably the only thing I get is the stress. Mmhmm.

2008-12-18T22:27:00.002+08:00

Dead Meat, Dead Beat

WELL! The good side of things are that I FINALLY finished my TLL projects!
Poster, Presentation, DONE!
Yay!
Yet now, its a roller coaster ride in studies.

I have yet to touch a single book from school,
I have yet to touch the chem holiday package,
I have yet to touch TOK
I have yet to read Paddy
I have yet to read Ms Julie (Yet to buy..)
I have yet to re-read the lit texts

I have SO much things to do for Choir.
I have TO RUN. If not, I am a disgrace to myself.

Y6.
UH OH!
:O

2008-12-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

Defeated

OKAY! FINE!
I LOSE!
Hahaha.
I'm trying to have a life but apparently, its IMPOSSIBLE.

Yesterday's concert was SHOCKING.
Well, ACS Choir has to work hard.
We can do it! But it takes EVERY SINGLE PERSON'S dedication.

Yes, life-less.
Either than coming home late due to attachement and trying to rush EE or TOK, or even attachment work O_O
my attempts to go out FAILS. xD

Well well well,
that's a jet life.

2008-12-12T00:20:00.002+08:00

Nostalgia

Well, I was finding my presentation slides for TLL
(couldn't find it! Means I must go there early tommorow!)
and I accidentally opened something I didn't open for A VERY LONG TIME.

Looking at those files just makes my heart sink,
In a nice way, I look back at those smiling times,
but at the same time, it just screams that its never coming back.

I find it awkward that I am able to laugh at my old plight,
Yet, it is quite queer.

Its quite sad, just very sad,
what I've been through,
and now,
hardly either party open our auricle muscles.

Past
The leaves this summer,
never those leaves that summer.
From the chlorphyll to the lamina,
It is different to me.

The leaves that used to talk,
dance, play, walk, smile.
Gone.

Deomposed, lost to the cold ground.
The leaves regrow, yet,
its not it.
The way it flutters in the wind,
the way it reflects light.
Everything is new,
Cold,
Fake.

One day,
I hope, the old leaves will be taken up by that very tree.
That day, the summer leaves will be the same.
That day, the summer leaves will be the same.

2008-12-10T19:56:00.002+08:00

LIPIDS

shit,

im getting fat

2008-12-08T22:51:00.003+08:00

EXPERIENTIAL

Ran a half-marathon without running for a month. Not exactly the wisest move. It just felt like the first time I ran 10km. Well, bad timing. I didn't expect much. All I expected was to keep running.

Hmm. Dug in a bin. That's something I never thought I would ever do. Yes, I was finding something. Point is, that thing wasn't even in the bin. Heehee. Won't tell you which hand it was! Anyway, I dumped half a bottle of hand sanitizer on it. It SHOULD be germ free.

YUP!

xD

2008-12-05T21:06:00.002+08:00

Hyperactivity

Put me in a building for 9 hours.
In a single room for 3 hours straight nearly everyday.
On one chair.
I don't blame myself for HYPERACTIVITY.

My life has became mundane.

Stuff I look foward to would be LUNCH and HOME.

Others would be free moments where I plonk myself on the couch and read
"The New Yorker" 's Fiction Section.

Luckily I have an AMAZING supervisor.

Ho! Yesterday was rush rush rush!
The day at TLL. 9-6
Singing Rehersals. 6.30-9.15
CANDY EMPIRE :O 9.50-10.00 9
(yes it is so important that it deserves a slot!xD)
Terminal 1 10.10 - 11.20
Taxi 11.30- 11.50
Home 12.00

Busy Fizzy Dizzy!

2008-11-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

Sleep...

Today was just exhausting.
BLEH.

But sad in a way that the only thing left through this entire holidays is ee, tok and attachement.

sighs

2008-11-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

What in the World is Happening to the WORLD

Mumbai. Why? Why?
Whats with all the carnage?
We have people killing the planet already with all the global warming,
and everyday, we act as though NOTHING is happening.

I can' stand it.
The chaos just irks me.

In some ways, when people say we are civilised,
I doubt it.
We are still uncivilised,
Everyone is killing everyone,
Just that its slowly, quietly and cleverly.

Disgusting.
Competitive.
Shit.

2008-11-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

Presently...

Tired. Tired. Tired.
Hahaha.
It came to a point that instead of sleeping NEXT to my supervisor,
my eyelids drooped right infront of him while he was talking to me.
yikes!
I thought the days where i required that hormone is over!

Sheesh. It would REALLY be boring with Choir off-ed for the year.
Gosh!
Going for TLL is like doing ANOTHER EE.
Don't I hate EE's?
Heh

I have yet to read any academically inclined material
Year 6. Uh oh...

And talking to a possible future European citizen doesn't work.
Its sad to the extreme.
Frankly, I should have expected all THIS for this hols!

Isn't it called the monsoon season?
Hahahhahahaha

Work Work...

2008-11-23T20:25:00.002+08:00

AW MAN

It was an amazing Friday and Saturday.
I just lost a great number of hours of sleep

It was great to be with the kiddos of Chinese Orchestra
They are just so CUTE
Hahaha.
It sounds paedophilic
Though, with the kids its the same, with the facilitators, its different.

Everything is changing.
AHHHH!

Horrible
Horrible
Horrible
Holidays

THOUGH! I am looking foward to Post Choral Exchange...

2008-11-18T22:42:00.002+08:00

Sighs

what a lifestyle.
rountine.

8-9am : Choir
9am-6pm: Research Attachment
6-7pm: Break
7-8pm: Dinner
8pm < : Work.

And I have absolutely hardly anytime to run.

Holidays? I mean, WHAT!?

Sheesh.
And everything is so darn demanding.

I wonder why am I still smiling away
Hahahahha.
:)

2008-11-14T23:43:00.006+08:00

Rojak

That's what I feel. like, essentially, mixed. There is the sweet, sour, salty and bitter.
You eat something sweet, you forget about the bitter and you eat something bitter and it stays there till a lot more sweet get you good again.
Bitter-sweet!

Its really a HORROR missing SO MANY choir practices! GOSH!!
I HAVE YET TO LEARN THE SET PIECE.
And I have EE to do because plants don't wait for you!
At the same time Research Attachment is every moment!
TOK!!!
Fizzy Busy

Defining Moments of the Week:

-Interacting more with the other TLL Participants!
-Getting to see HCI and NJC Choir EXCO again at HCI!
-Counting 1797 Pollen Grains
-Playing with the Secondary School Choir
- Finally, seeing the sunshine give a momentary smile today, priceless.

The Summer's Smile
Her cheeks wrinkles like the sun's golden hues,
And though dimple-less,
Its there, I know it,
Like stars in the day.

Ah! Those eyes.
Glowing with passion,
Sparkling with zest.
A mornining glory and its dew.

Hummingbirds sung their happy songs,
everything had gone along.

Yet, the spherical blue-green monster does not wait.
Authmn then Winter.
Elephant hides cover the skies.
What is happening?

I long for Summer's Smile,
though aware of the absence.
It will be there, I know it,
Snow will melt,
Leaves will grow,
and I may never let go.

2008-11-10T07:24:00.001+08:00

Jet's Wonder of the World

I WONDER, if its possible to cry till you dehydrate?
Hmmm..

2008-11-09T00:20:00.004+08:00

from the top!
hello!
hahaha. its the dawn of a new day :)

Everything restarts. Somebody tripped over the wires!
One day may not be enough to recover but in time to come, I hope I will ;)
Hmm, I really ought to be working hard!

Priorities:
Choir
Attachment
Run
Academics

:)
I should be going to my secondary 4 regime of not using msn on weekdays xD
It should help.

Oh, what wonderful holidays!

2008-11-05T20:01:00.003+08:00

creativity PLEASE!
Hahaha. i want to complain!
My jokes should be copyrighted. GOSH!

Deans was messed up real bad due to the rain.
Had a wonderful tea/dinner
Coffee Club Burger and Mudpie
Oh gosh, I shouldn't have talked to them anyway, haha, kinda makes things worse! xD
anywhos, we bumped into mr ho! hahahha
1 in 4million chance

Haha, sometimes,
I wished I stayed only in Cross Country.
sighs.
But Choir, is awesome, most of the times,
the WONDERFUL secondary ones!

sleeping is an essential thing these days,
tired tired very tired.

I'm fine!

And the flower that we're working on!

2008-11-04T21:05:00.003+08:00

posh gosh!
the research attachment is pretty cool and fun.
people there are friendly and nice
its a pretty place

my research?
well its on a certain species of flower.
arabidopsis i think.
its really small. trust me

and i will spend most of my time counting the number of mutant types and normal types of pollen grains of these minature flowers. haha.
well, the cool part is really the reason for all the things that pops out from the microscope.
to prepare the slides itself is a herculean task for me.

the only down side of it is that for the only 2 talks i had,
i fell asleep in both.
and also, your eyes and head gets goofy after staring through the microscope for too long a time.

choir choir,
its running well i suppose, not perfect though.
time has to be squeezzzzzzzed

busy,
keeps my mind off things!

2008-11-02T15:06:00.003+08:00

xD
After talking to Daniel Ang
Looking at my secondary school friends' life
I figured I don't have A LIFE!

Swimming today made me think
Seventeen should be the prime of your youth right?
You are the Dancing Queen at seventeen.
You have a magazine dedicated to you!
Your age is similar to that of "Lisa" in the "Sound of Music"
You ARE suppose get most of your maturity this year since its "NC16" and "M18".
And the last one,

Seventeen is a prime number ;)

Happy Holidays!

2008-10-31T00:06:00.002+08:00

what an awfully tiring day!
woke up with a swollen eyelid.
choir-ed a bit, conc camp-ed, lee kong chian-ed

ah gees, days go by and problems start to add on.
its like this never stopping stream of problems.
i figured that problems are free?
happiness is redeemed through effort!
quite right!
analogy:
you get dirty in the rain, thats a problem! and thats free, getting dirty
then you go home, and have to bath and the bathing foam used is bought through money, earned through effort.

researching was tedious.
type type type.
a truely entertaining moment when my sister and I say a crowd of senior citizens do aerobics at the space outside the library.
joining them for a minute was even more entertaining. xD
though, we ran away quickly, it was fun while it lasted.

tommorow is another late late day.

morning choir
afternoon deans list
night lessons

when can i take a break?
a full break
nice long holiday?
END OF YEAR 6!! xD

2008-10-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

i come home sick and tired everyday.

aiya.

2008-10-28T23:06:00.004+08:00

ARGH. why do i have deans list clashing with choir?
gosh, i planned out the day so happily and to my HORROR!
Then, i have conc camp for english plopped in the middle of choir, how pissing!

Why can't ANYTHING suit you at all?

BAH!

2008-10-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

haha.
how funny when all the not-happy stuff slams you at one go.
you just laugh about your plight!
wahahahaha.

today was food-filled.
its pure abstinence from ALOT of chinese cusine food for the next few days.
mixing around with the hc and nj choir exco was pretty awesome.
their quite a nice bunch.
though it be funny the day it hit them i have ZERO choir background

on the minus side,
the day ended sour.
plodded home to sleep and had horrible dinner.
thai isn't exactly my favourite cusine. call me spoiled but really,
as a person who cook, i think the thais just overuse the spices.

well, it comes to the point of acceptance and going "aiya"

and what i learnt last year from darren koh,
when times get hard, life gets exciting.
my life is VERY exciting.
i love it

2008-10-25T16:23:00.002+08:00

procrastination gets you nowhere!

the story of my analysis of prose passage:
did it halfway during conc camp, mr brian ng said we can finish it at home.

cycled home but didn't have mood to do. wrote 2 sentences. DECIDED TO FINISH IT BEFORE DEAN'S LIST

bus-ed to school. lunched. met william to discover, in my horror, that i left my math port at home! (due 5pm that day) Paniced off and on, got it in the end. In the frenzy, wrote 1 parapgraph in 1 and a half hours. DECIDED TO DO IT AT NIGHT

After the class party, went home, EXHAUSTED! DECIDED TO DO IT BEFORE CHOIR

woke up in the morning, ahh! family is chasing me out of the house, okay! DECIDED TO DO IT IN SCHOOL BEFORE CHOIR

cycled to school. and people were there already so talked. DECIDED TO DO AFTER CHOIR

choir ended and lunched. went home. okay lets do it!

discovered that i left the prose passage along with my halfdone work in school. -_-

life is wonderful.

2008-10-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

the week has been up and down, in and out.
So I am down for Conc camp for English.
Happy in some ways that I hope it can help me..

Choir choir.
it has been demanding in all ways.
Time, mind, body.

Off and on mood swings.
haha. thats so funny.
I am like an old woman.

oktoberfest was good.
at least its an event where a certain degree of bonding? took place.

on the other side of things,
its been doopsy woopsy,
but then, if i can SMILE it through,
i WIN!

2008-10-20T17:06:00.002+08:00

i found a good analogy of it.

its like cancer.
the first time you knew it, you sob hard and grieve
then, the doctor tells you not all hope is lost.
then you start to recover, but in just a wink
you relaspe, yet, effects starts to ebb away again and you recover.
the vicious cycle continues to the point where you have no idea whether to have hope or not.
whether one day, it will end up taking your life.

quite good huh? hahahaha

2008-10-19T14:29:00.002+08:00

ouch pain
pain ouch
ouch pain
pain ouch
ouch pain
pain ouch
ouch pain
pain ouch
ouch pain
pain ouch
ouch pain
pain ouch
ouch pain
pain ouch

2008-10-18T21:05:00.002+08:00

A Mental Disaster
roaring flames rocketed the farenheit.
thunder, lightning!
cyclones and hurricanes left a trail of destruction.
pain pain PAIN!

hows your headache?

2008-10-18T20:54:00.003+08:00

student or elderly?
streaks of greys lined the hair,
and deep, dark rings encircled the sockets.
permanent etch of worry plastered on the matured face,
old...

more caffine, more caffine!

a hacking cough degenerates the weak trachea lining.
wheezing at the slightest exertion of energy.
frail limbs lifts the limp body.

"I must finish before going to the long awaited slumber"

2008-10-17T17:31:00.003+08:00

results weren't as bad as i thought?
although, papers were done BADLY
in a way that it puts me in the average
hahaha. i should get pressed down.
thinking too highly of myself at times.

english was just GOSH!
3rd lowest mark in level just isn't sad but humourous.
its an obvious sign of a science student.

ah gees.

i guess the only thing that i feel lousy about is positions.
but i should be grateful in where i stand, and i am.

cheer up!
the sun ain't down yet!

2008-10-14T20:06:00.003+08:00

why why why?
its been happy for one day
and its downhill on tuesday

my studies,
teachers have been mopping over exam scripts
going through them.
all it has done was to strike fear and even sorrow
in my educational heart.
maths port. GOSH!
i guess i am not good in maths at all.
ah well.
having to redo isn't at all pleasant.

choir,
its stressful.
people are leaving
there is so many things to settle
and more over, do it WELL
so many things to DO!
to rememeber!
no wonder my temper is getting more and more thin.

jolly what fun!
hahahahhahahaha

2008-10-11T09:25:00.002+08:00

boogie-fied!
okay, maybe KBL cleanup wasn't much of a revamp =P
BUT, it is much neater now, MUCH.

funny how i can say that cleaning the room up required blood, sweat and tears.

friday's later half was much better than the earlier.
i guess ceilings are an alternative of clouds.
the amazing short period,
where you wish that time would stop
and last a lifetime.
hohoho.

but then, whats life without complications?

the sunshine was dark at around 12-1 though.
grew brighter, evidently :)
gosh, im starting to become a weatherman

2008-10-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

shit
problem is back.
shit shit shit

and i thought it was solved
oh bother!

2008-10-08T20:03:00.002+08:00

bah!
my head hurts. I keep sleeping.
gosh, the after effects of absitence from caffine is tormenting.
definitely haven't be productive the last few days.

monday was watching house and flipping through OLD choir pictures.
gosh, how cute our seniors WERE. Haha.

tuesday was much more enjoyable.
morning, was choir spent.
interesting how i spent most of the time pretending to play the songs in the songbank of the keyboard.

the afternoon.
metaphorically,
the sun was up, sunshine was bright and sunny
bask in the brillance of it all.
yeah. loved it.

today was a movie-ing day.
yup, moving. sighs.
fifty first dates. an old one, but pretty.
a walk to remember. touching, very, and sweet, nice.
pretty feministic taste huh?
oestrogen levels are soaring in my plasma. AHHH!
well spent day too, 12-3.

bwahahahaha.
oh exams.
hoho.
english: never good at it, probably never will
chinese: gosh! it was hard. really, this one is sighs..
econs: okay lah..but same thing said in mids, never did well too.
maths: my paper's answer is conc camp material.
chemistry: uh uh, as hard or even harder than mids. which is AHHHHH!
bio: hoho, not that easy subject. okay paper but all the points in? thats the hard part.

all in all,
uh uh.
not a good exam.

2008-10-04T19:40:00.002+08:00

i am sad

woke up the morning, tired.
had a phase of emo-cities in school.
booger.
sunshine was bright though.
so sunshine made me happ-ier!
bright bright day till...

i discovered the awesome yes awesome amount of marks i minused.
Firstly, you cant count you with your fingers and thats the first time in a long time,
I know that i minused more than 10 before i got the paper back.
use your toes, also cannot.
use them twice.
thats the amount.
adding on to random mistakes....
my maths has gone down the drain.
has gone.
my good subject.
only good subject.
gone
gone
poooof

meet dumboy jet,
roadsweep with an o level cert.
proud enough to say that i know brooms wear out because of friction.
my muscles are tired because of lactic acid.
my sweat contains chemical NaCl
i can "differentiate" the leaves from the grass.
socialise with the land owners using chinese and english. billingual!
know that i enjoy low tax rates and high transfer payments, benefiting from fiscal policies.
write poems on leaves.

Dew, nice to see you again.
the day springs to a bustle,
yet, all i hear
are the leaves rustle's.

brightside of things huh?
:)

2008-09-26T22:08:00.002+08:00

I am a messed up kid.
I am so sick of exams that I cannnot be bothered.
You know? Its scary.
Instead feeling worried, wanting to study, I actually am feeling calm.
Stressed. a little. but not worried.

I cannot even recognise Ammonia being sp3.
I am so useless!
Its good in a sense though.
People will stop thinking that I am smart.
Which is the truth! I am not!

Now, I am just plain. normal. dumb boy.
A simple life lies ahead.
sighs.

2008-09-20T22:14:00.003+08:00

exams! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
False hope? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Conc Camp! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2008-09-15T21:08:00.002+08:00

oh am I so tired today.
So very sorry if it freaked anybody out but yes,
when Im tired, I am generally high.
and the bad thing is anything comes out from my mouth.
there is hardly any filter.
bother!

pretty moment today was when buble went "L is for the way you look at me.."
I had to glance up to see freshly bloomed purple coloured flowers from a tree!
Yup, it sounds pretty wussy but thennnn,
the flowers were pretty period.
moreover, the walk home was breezy :)

oh yes, i just bought digestives!
you like them too don't you? ;)

2008-09-14T17:27:00.003+08:00

its so darn doodely dang STRESSFUL!
Goodness.
I am dying under that S word.

Just realised the implications of not doing well.
The expectations, Con camp.
EXPECTATIONS!
Thats the most worrying one.
Arghhhhhh.
I am dying dying dying.
Stress Stress Stress.
I even swore for the first time in months.

2008-09-13T19:39:00.003+08:00

gosh!

before i was sick:
hershey's
maple syrup

sick:
milo powder

im dead.
sneeze sneeze. sleep sleep.
all the s's yet the one i need is not happening
STUDY!

2008-09-13T13:46:00.003+08:00

what a horrid week!
Aside from the short, long destressing moments,
gosh! the lack of sleep!
BAH!

And moreover, I am sick. Argh! Flu Flu Flu.
Just bought a box of disgusting tasting Strepsils from an overfriendly shopkeeper.

Yesterday was enjoyable!

Hypothesis: There is a negative correlation between exams and your well-being.

2008-09-10T20:44:00.002+08:00

gosh! I need sleep.
Badly.
I am running on Caffine as fuel.
It is confirmed that I need lots of sleep to survive.

day begun quite boring.
the usuals.
school ended pretty well though :)
happy happy happy!

work!

2008-09-09T19:24:00.002+08:00

today! :)

in the tiniest nutshell:

swimming was TIRING
Vanilla again :)
and a beautiful sunset

Ahhhh!

2008-09-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

2008-09-08T17:07:00.003+08:00

:) Before studying begins

I finished the Clodhoppers!! My goodness! In 24hours.
Abstinence is just not my oomph.
It was gooooood though!

First day of the term was tiring!
Late night due to IOP.
My breakfast got me high though!
Yummy yummy yummy! :D

The only other pretty moment of the day:

Jazz tunes reverberrated within the ears.
Cool, calm surroundings.
The air scented with vallina!
A baker at work!
or if better, a vanilla :) pod tree around the corner :)))

2008-09-05T19:04:00.002+08:00

ARGH!
E-rritaing EXAMS!
I having the BLUES.
I cannot do concentrate
I can't seem to do Maths as I used to.

I am dying dying dying.
Studies.

I am prepared to become a road sweeper.
:'(

Oh yes! though one thing I am amused at recently was the ability to finish a tub of icecream.
One stinking TUB!

Better treasured it now,
I don't think I can earn enough to buy that next time considering my future job aspects.

2008-09-04T22:19:00.003+08:00

You all are too nice! Making me feel so guilty... :(
I seriously don't think I am so previliged to get all this attention.
bowzers!

Understanding the difficulty to plan things, I REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS!
The EXCO+Mervyn!
I thought the CPA2 thing was so very good already! And although a lunch could follow after,
who knew I had to spoil everything because I was too embarassed. BLEH!
Painted face, wearing a corny hat just is too much to be shameless. at City Hall.

And the EPIC surprise at Goodwood. GOSH!
Coming to my home would just be too far and complicated but the entire thought of it.
Gees!
You guys are lovely!

And everybody's well wishes:
NCC! MSHS! ACS(I)! NYPSCO!
sweet sweet SWEET people!

2008-09-01T22:10:00.004+08:00

i fear my exams.
i really do.

my running has regressed.
alot.
today's long run was tiring,
which should not be the case.

although choir is to take a break
stuff is still on my mind.

thank the talk on sunday.
it put my mind off certain things,
some.

though,
i am keeping a smile!
smiley smiley smiley!
la la la la la.

Oh, and a certain sign of stress
when you start talking to ovens,
konkers is near...

2008-08-31T01:13:00.001+08:00

2008-08-30T10:53:00.004+08:00

i shall try to stop being an emotional tart on my blog.
thanks everyone for the good words :)

and what defined most of yesterday:

Sing tune of to "Singapore Town"

I took a little trip sitting Bus and Train,
to find the choir's Mrs Elaine Wan,
Through Coller Quay and Raffles Place,
Reached Esplanade ,PHEW, not too late.

To give her flowers
for her many hours,
that she spent in teaching us.
To make her happy
and tell her sincerely,
that she should be *clap *clap *clap, more nasty

When I reached there
She didn't pick up her phone.
I was like "OH S**T S**T S**T S**T S**T"
Yet when I went to the info counter
My phone suddenly ring.

To give her flowers
for her many hours,that she spent in teaching us.
To make her happy
and tell her sincerely,
that she should be *clap *clap *clap, more nasty

Finally, I met her
and she was very happy.
But when she left
I stood and ponder
"Now I am stuck here"

To give her flowers
for her many hours,that she spent in teaching us.
To make her happy a
nd tell her sincerely,
that she should be *clap *clap *clap, more nasty

And that was the quintessance of lame

2008-08-27T23:11:00.004+08:00

How frustrating it is.
To be unable to tell anyone anything.
To have nobody close enough to confide.
To keep everything to yourself.

Its really awful.
You know.
Really.

Yes, I'm still not be able to sacrifice.
It will just rip my wounded aortic pumps to bits.

Rooftop
We're here again, but different, always, somehow.
Motes of dust ebbs away, everytime. (I think)
It clings to our shoes. A parasite? A dandelion?
Alas, the tiles will be visible, one day.

I'm here again, but different, always, somehow.

2008-08-25T20:31:00.004+08:00

ATTENTION! You have been caught by the Happy Police!
You are now surrounded! Put your cheeks up and surrender your frown!
We are not afraid to use our endorhphins!

You were spotted today,25th August 2008 with a teary eye,
and countless acts on Emo-ing and not smiling.

Our 'Unhappy Detector' is able to penetrate through your pseudo image,
All attempts are to be given up in the name of Happy Law!

I, hereby sentence you to a lifetime of smiling,
laughing at cheap thrills
and intenstive counselling by our familiar neighbourhood counseller.

I am sure she will be delighted to help you.

Court Dimissed!

*boing*boing

2008-08-24T11:14:00.003+08:00

The waves roll silently up the beach,
retreating with a melodious hiss.
Subtle blends of sweet and salt,
the concoction of the dewy breeze.

The sand, virgin and supple,
painted only the pictures of our dancing feet.
Those pale crystals snuggled up between our toes
as we embellished the beach.

"Sir, Madam, its raining"
And yes it was.
Yet, our movements unbroken,
spelling our hearts out on the surface.

Neither party could comprehend,
only the doves that encircled overhead knew.
Did they speak of bleak or bliss?
Gay or Grief?

Written on their faces,
a smile.
Ah.
Eternity, now.

2008-08-23T17:14:00.004+08:00

Dim hues of warm light from the cafe,
rests on the cobbledstone street,
The air, a touch of moisture, a gust of wind.
Faint scent of a cuppa pervades the air,
and just a tinge of the aroma of a cigar.

Drizzle, only felt, not be seen.

The wooden radio gently comes to life.
May I?

The notes linger in the air.
And only with the our eyes as audiences,
we danced all night.

2008-08-21T06:34:00.001+08:00

not usual of me?

I woke up today.

Sick and tired of life.

2008-08-19T23:37:00.002+08:00

certainly not a NEW phrase in many mouths:
I think I'm messing up my life.

Geez.
My studies have taken a dip.
I cannot do Maths like I used to.
Biology is not at the snap of fingers.
Chemistry is too.
Econs is foreign.
English is GOSH!
Chinese, I just lost the impetus.

Its practically impossible to balance a social and working life.
Seriously.

On the other hand,
Choir has been stressful in ways.
But then, getting the many helping hands just makes me feel so much better.

And,
having the moments where I just tear myself away from school (which is practically my life)
is all so wonderful.blissful.
Stepping away from that busy, hectic world in just a few minutes.
Who wouldn't want that?

Gosh! I think I'm going to mess up the selection test for the research attachment.
My preparation plan was "Just Whack"
I don't think its effective.
Hmm...

2008-08-17T09:34:00.002+08:00

Well, it was a great day.
Saturday begin with running at Mount Faber with Cross.
I've got to say its pretty fun going back.
However, its again, tiring. =P

Rained so we rushed back to school much earlier.
Time alone for quite a long time.
Its pretty nice wandering around school on your own, taking your own time doing things.

Enjoyable moments filled the rest of the afternoon.
But, Im afraid its all coming back again.
Not the bad, crappy parts but the good ones.
The happy ones. The smiley ones.
Its less complicated if I keep it as the way it was.
Just don't come crashing down again.
I do not want to let go...

The night was spent in a fail-ed Comm outing.
Small group but ah wells, it had its fun bits!
Though I figured, the comm is breathing Choir at nearly every moment.

Sheesh.

2008-08-12T23:41:00.003+08:00

okay.
I am really lost.

fishsticks!

on top of that,
I have to worry about the ccas.
today was apparently quite well.
Came to school and figured oral was postponed!
Scored pretty well for a test i didn't prepare xD
Secured a Gold for NAPFA!!

Then came the afternoon,
Bad news?

2008-08-09T23:18:00.002+08:00

wow. 3 days choir filled. SERIOUSLY
Friday. Saturday. Sunday

Friday was really fun fun fun!
Ran to school. Gosh, the latic build up was terrible. As in, it couldn't clear as fast as it used too. Grr.
National Day celebration was great! Time spent with choir was like another reminence of FOA preparations STRESS-LESS. We went up there just to have fun with the crowd :)
In that period of rehersal, it was so much relax and just pure joy.
Pretty serious now, considering the role i have to play but still, I had my fun.

Officially, it has to be the most number of times I looked at the camera lens on 8 August 2008.
Pretty surprised with myself too.xD
After the performance, Y5 post FOA thingy was not bad!
I mean, I didn't have in mind the entire party ra ra thing but a time together was essential and just satisfying enough :)
Left halfway for the interviews at MOE.
I have to admit that I'm pretty weary about my ability to qualify! It was such a short interview! Considering the MOE Pre-U one, it was certainly a short one.
The interviewers, as usual, were nice..

Went back to school.
Met a bunch of kukoos holding MOPS while taking pictures.
Where the kukoos turned out to be the dear y5's who still stayed on.
Hahaha. It was really funny though. The whole idea of them being retards. O_O

Quickly pushed on to talking about Choir.
Stayed and moved to KBL to talk about more prevalent things.
And the Cutey Year 1's, Hadi and Edwin stayed back to clean the KBL!
Those two! We owe them BIG time!

Today was Choir meet again.
Essential since more of the Comm came.
Lunched first and then, supermarketed and met.

Pretty alright meeting but what others said was that is was not fruitful.
I thought it was though xD
Anyhow, tommorow is another meet up but faster one.

Well, many things are being decided for tommorow.
I have to then finish my work, swim, and yah, that.

I wished there were like 24 digits on a analouge watch.
Days will be doubled. having, 730 days in a year!

Whoopee!

2008-08-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

i recovered. :)
I guess its after the thinking, dreary feeling for 3 days, i just couldn't take it!
Though, i wake up in the mornings feeling lousy, it gradually becomes better
and acceptance kicks in through the day.
Well, i really got to thank the people that were concerned, really wow. thank you.
and especially choir. I guess a major turning point was when i entered the KBL and saw everybody. A sense of belonging and fun!

Also, I really am sorry for jeopardizing the other party. Didn't expect that the other side had other pressing problems too. How selfish, jet!

Well, now, i really need to get back on work. It really feels so much better with mind mostly on work now.
Oh, and as it may be informed from the lovely crowd of the tagboard, most people probably know the news. Well, I work it my way and see how it goes :)

And i really really love the structure of it. The people presently in the Comm are wonderful.

I suddenly feel really thankful for my life presently.
I back to being smiley.
I got my friends.
I got Choir.

Yet, I NEED results.
FOCUS!

2008-08-05T20:31:00.002+08:00

today. was proabably my quietest day in ACS
much of the blast came today. it was pretty painful when you think of both parties together.
till PE, where i amazingly fell asleep in the MPH, i felt much better.
apparently exercise works so it should be a morning run to school tommorow.

i do not doubt that the pain is still there.

on the lighter note though, the class was concerned about the silence.
thank you

we'll see how long i can keep suppressing myself.
i'd be proud of it if i could do so.

2008-08-04T06:22:00.002+08:00

before i get to school and be flung into a whirlwind of emotions.
i just have to say this.
slept pretty early last night. Simply lost it.

...

Its sooo secret agent falls for subject.

The Scene
"Please get __ back, ___ probably our only hope"
"Yes. I'll go"

It started out as a mission.
Then, it became disastrous.

I've only got myself to blame.
I read it wrongly and,
Its certainly so selfish if I were to drag people down.

I am not regretting anything.
But, if I had known sooner.
and if I had not been that ignorant.

However, when ignorance was in,
it was the best time ever

Its ironic that its time to avoid the person that cheers you up.

So well, i just hope to get back onto my feet.

So finally,

Thank you for the times of
The Purple Dinosaur,
My Spongy Yellow Friend,
The Hundred Acre Woods Family.

:')

2008-08-03T00:45:00.003+08:00

Choir. Never had I expect. Really. I dont know how to express my utter jubilation during the course of all the events.
I did feel this joyous feeling whenever I step into Choir but Thursday and especially Friday, was the most enjoyable period of the entire FOA rehersal period and possibly my happiest period yet in ACS(I) Choir.

Starting on Thursday:
Anticipated the ending of school at yet another early time, 11am.
Met the others and lunch-ed with cheeky Secondary One's at their Charity Cafe.
Submitted to spending 50 cents to a bag of what-seemed-to-be Banana Flavoured Popcorn
No, I didn't finish it myself or else my throat would have died.

Pretty good rehersals with Ms Lim. Sounded well and warmed up. Ended with a tee-wee bit of dancing in the KBL.
Mini-outing with the Choir Dancers! Doug, Jeremiah, Hui Fang and myself head down to Holland Village. Bought hats, Confetti Guns, Balloons, Hairsprays, Beachballs. Plodded down to Coffee Club for dinner.
Geared up for the night!

Morning of FOA! Reached CPA 1 and back to that familiar crowd.
Morning spent rehersing, yet again. Though I was allowed to sit and watch the 1st half. Pretty entertaining!
Afternoon was probably the most fun, smile-filled,laughter-filled, relaxed period of FOA. After lunching, headed back to paint the hats! It was sooo fun! Not only painting the hats but the complete randomness in between.
Lets see, attempts to paint one another, eating gummies! Jeremiah's crazy laughter, Working pretty hard on the hat, making the clearing up of confetti a game.

Its pretty pathetic on my side that I required so much help! I needed help eating the gummies, painting the hat, popping the gun. Oh gosh, what I wimp I am!
Proudly donned the hat and dined! Walked back to change. Pretty fast, warmed up, holding room and out. And then, waited to enter and perform. Noticed that AGAIN I was with the wrong crowd but I just couldn't be bothered!
Spectacular performance. As we sang each song, I really couldn't believe that all that practices in the last few months is just passing away as we hit each note and carry on to the next few songs. You know, if you thought back then, you just didn't want to sing so time need not past..

Second half!
Changed. Revised steps. 6 of us got high infront of a glass panal while revising steps. Soon, it was running down the steps and dancing. Then Tequila-ed, Albert's Perfect Solo, All for One. BAM!

Thanked Mrs Lenie Cho. Rushed out to sing Lord Bless. First time was an Epic failure. Third time was the best. Returned to KBL and photo graphed. What fun we had!
The Congo? Line. Darling Superstar. Taupoks. Hairsprays.
Swensons.
Home.
Slept.
Dreamt.
Woke up.

"Oh bother. FOA is over!"

And to add on..Photos!

2008-07-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

ahh! this week has been, tiring. absolutely!
choir is taxing, adding on to IAs that have to be completed, amounting stress of lessons missed!
well, on the fun side, for around 7-8 hours a day, i get to be around the people i really like :)

dancing has never been so very tiring in a sense of keeping the "warped" mindset up!
i really do hope the choir can look so much happier, lively during the performance. i really do..
rehersals today were a tad bad, but well, i guess, its changable.

and on the side of emotions. haha. dont really have the time for it do i?
it still pains and aches a little but ah well, shouldn't let it affect my mood, should i?
ah, we will see how it goes. its just so hard to even LOOK.

here we go!

2008-07-25T17:17:00.001+08:00

it hurts.

at least, its out.
Thank you.

2008-07-23T22:31:00.002+08:00

I am putting up with quite a bit of stress. This period is really really demanding.

Amazingly, I am still smiley smiley.

Although having some weird mood swings here and there, I think I'm still fine.
Lack of sleep has resulted a little jumpy-ness in my character, a little higher than usual.

So, thats quite a bothersome since it only adds on to the fatigue.

Hee
Hee

Work.

2008-07-19T18:06:00.002+08:00

certainly am feeling better now.
thank you to the few people that made what was left of my week brighter!

friday was quite enjoyable.
Besides having the traffic lights to coincide with the pace at which i ran,
choir in the afternoon was really enjoyable.
ALTHOUGH, i cant really learn my part well, but it was still fun.

saturday was quite cool too!
woke at 6.30 to run to school, AGAIN!
had the kbl to myself, and looked through the extensive library of scores.
slowly people came in.
practice was well and fun.
staying back after that wasn't as fun as last week but still, its cosy to be in familiar company :)

what i regret now is sleeping late.
Thursday's late night dragged on to friday and friday's late night accumulated to today.

Oh yes, i fell into a drain today. how bothersome!
and my first reaction? LAUGH! how stupid xD

I hope research at Lee Kong Chian tommorow will be fruitful
if not, I will get skewered by my superivisor on monday.

Oh gosh, i just got news that i have to stay late for choir on tuesday.
wonderful.
wonderful.
wonderful.

my work is going die...

2008-07-16T21:09:00.002+08:00

:)
To tell the truth, for this week, my smile has been a fake facade.

Feeling awfully down this week.

My expression makes me happy! momentarily,

why so glum?

:(

2008-07-14T16:34:00.001+08:00

okay. exams weren't THAT bad.
Relative to the class its quite good actually. But relative to level. Hoho.

Choir has been fun. As always. Friday started with having a mini Choir gathering to just talk about stuff. Saturday started interestingly with breakfast!
It was a Buaya case but in any case, I didn't want to be one! Amazingly, we weren't late even though we took a tee-wee bit long in munching our hotcakes.

After Choir was GREAT! Haha. It is ALWAYS the times where fun starts when theres slacking on the agenda and you're with friends.
The Y5's that stayed back for the interviews sang and sang and sang!
What utter joy!

Today, hurrr. Getting out of school was a herculean task.

The ceremony was not really good. I suppose they cut down on the formalities for certain reasons but still, I thought some effort should have been made.

Anyway, why stay on past glories? I didn't feel like going in the first place. =P